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Close Eating Disorders
: Anorexia

5/28/08 Ok well it all started in the beginning of the school year. I wanted to loose weight so I purchased a total gym for my 16th birthday and I used that for an hour everyday and stayed on a healthy diet, but after 20 days of doing that I didn't even loose one pound. And I wanted to loose weight fast so my friend told me about juice fasting, so I tried that and it worked, and I liked it. It seemed to be the only way for me to loose weight. But I was really starving myself and my parents were getting concerned so now all I'm eating/drinking is fruit and fruit juice. But last week I went into deep depression were I didn't even want to get out of bed and I didn't see any point in anything anymore. And Sunday I got my period and I didn't feel like having any fruit in the morning so I just skipped the fruit and had some ice tea. Later that day I was shopping at walmart and while bagging the food I was starting to feel faint. Then a few minutes later I was loosing my vision and my hearing, so then my dad bought me a soda but I didn't want to drink it, but he made me because he said my blood sugar was low, so I drank it and it made me feel better; my vision and hearing came back. Now my dad wants me to drink milk everyday but we always but whole milk and that is SO many calories, so instead I'm drinking slim fast which has more calcium than milk and I really like it. But since Sunday when I almost fainted, my dad has been really bothering my about my diet. But I really only almost fainted because I didn't eat that morning and I had my period and really bad cramps. But it was still really scary, I've fainted before, but this time I fought it and it was just weird. But this week it's been better because I just got my ab coaster in the mail Monday, and I'm really excited about that. But since I've been on this strict fruit diet I've been loosing one pound everyday, and I like that A LOT. But I haven't been loosing one pound everyday anymore. I'm 16 years old, 5'7'' and I weigh 141 lbs, but I should weigh 136 and it makes me mad that I haven't been loosing weight this week. Maybe it's because I have my period or maybe it's because I've been exercising and I'm building muscle, I don't know. But today I got really upset because in one of my classes my teacher made these chocolate frosted cupcakes and I couldn't eat one because of my strict diet. I felt like no one understood what I'm going through. And I'm jealous and stubborn. I feel almost anorexic. I really don't like the way I look. But I would NEVER go to extreme measures such as purging or taking diet pills, that's just wrong. But I did consider taking laxatives, but once I read that they were addictive, I never thought about it again. I'm just so sick of being the fat one in the group. I hate how all my clothes look horrible on me. It feels so nice to talk to someone about this, I haven't told my friends that I'm on this diet because they're all skinny and they wouldn't understand how much pain I'm going through. I just need some advice, any advice. It also really makes me mad cause when school started I weighed 165 lbs and since then I've lost 24lbs and NO ONE has noticed. It feels like what I'm doing is a lost cause. I've become obsessed, I weight myself MULTIPLE times a day and I never seem to be happy about my weight. Please help.

Close Diets & Weight Maintenance

I just stopped my juice fast diet because it wasn't healthy and I wasn't getting the right nutrition.

Treatments

Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked

I've been eating at least one fruit a day. Usually an apple or a banana. I also haven't been eating ANY chocolate or sweets of any kind.

Slim-Fast Working / Worked

I drink 2 slim fast shakes a day. It does control my hunger for 4 hours and they taste really good.