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About Me
hersong
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About Me
why i am here: i have issues that stem from childhood that have caused me problems throughout my life. i need to take control. i don't want these to affect me anymore. i have anxiety/stress/depression/social issues/self confidence problems/ i am somewhat obsessive compulsive and i dont understand what is upsetting me often- one minute i can be so happy and the next i am crying and i dont know why...etc. i am like a perfectionist and it is annoying. if things arent perfect and don't go right i worry and just get terrible anxiety. i am very critical and hard on myself. i feel fat and ugly when i eat often- but people always tell me i should be a model, so i know there is something wrong with my self-perception. these things come and go and vary daily... not nearly as often as they did a few years ago though. my major problems are the way i handle these things though... with food and alcohol abuse. i need to take control of my life and now is the time. i have ups and downs, but seems like when it is a down time- all of these problems show up.... like i can't cope and it affects me and i guess thats why i have all of these issues... but when it is an up time- i am just a normal, happy person.
why i am here: i have issues that stem from childhood that have caused me problems throughout my life. i need to take control. i don't want these to affect me anymore. i have anxiety/stress/depression/social issues/self confidence problems/ i am somewhat obsessive compulsive and i dont understand what is upsetting me often- one minute i can be so happy and the next i am crying and i dont know why...etc. i am like a perfectionist and it is annoying. if things arent perfect and don't go right i worry
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Yeah, I'm finally out of that eww place and in a better place....just money sucks with still paying for storage. Miss u!!! Hope you're having a good weekend. xoxoxox
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Close Eating Disorders
Started off anorexic at 16. Just lost a little weight, got attention for it and kept losing. Then I got better... Went to college and became bulimic. Been that way ever since. I am almost 25 now.
Close Codependency
I have gotten a lot better but I feel like I can't do anything on my own. Probably has something to do with social anxiety. Not as bad as I used to be, I think it is because my parents used to have a lot to say about every move I made- and now I need someone to do it. I get depressed when I am alone... I feel lonely sometimes even when other people are there.
Open Alcoholism
Didn't drink much before the age of 19/20. My 21st birthday i drank way too much and blacked out, came home and yelled at my whole family. I black out almost every time I drink. My dad is an alcoholic. I also have an ED. I yell at my boyfriend and whoever is there when I black out. I wake up in regret, apolgize... but it has become so empty. I have to change it, the apolgies mean nothing anymore.
Open Anxiety
I used to wake up scared for no reason, crying. Have to crawl into my closet or under my bed and cry. I can't help myself get out of my dark place. I get down and I can't get back up again. Some days are good, some are bad. I get social anxiety also. Don't really have too many people I can trust. Now- I can deal better. It has gotten a better. I've learned how to look at it from a dif. more analytical perspective but its still there sometimes. I can't make decisions! I stres and get anxious.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Not clinically diagnosed OCD, but I feel like I might have a slight case of it. I check and re-check doors, the freezer, count and re-count money, re-check things habitually- where I know it is fine but I have to check it anyway or else I have anxiety. I have habitual routines of certain lights on or off, certian blankets/pillows/towels from when I was little, very routine and if something isn't right I can't relax and have anxiety until I fix it. Not major- I think just a slight case...
Open Depression
Suffered from depression at dif. points in my life. I am fine one second and then depressed and crying and dont know why the next. Other times I stay depressed for weeks, months, etc. Moods change more frequently now- the highs and lows so I dont know if I am bipolar or what...
Open Bipolar Disorder
I am all over the place. I am happy sometimes, I am very sad others... I get extremely mad or sad and I don't know why. I yell and get mad sometimes and I don't know why I am so angry. I feel really depressed and I don't know why sometimes and I can't fix it. Other times I feel like I am so happy and on top of the world and am so confident. I have not been clinically diagnosed, but I want to learn more about it to see if it is me...
Open Food Addiction
Food rules my life. It makes me happy and sad.
