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beadawn 
12:46am, October 4, 2008
Well, Tuesday was our anniversary and he didn't have a clue. I gave him his card as he was going off to bed. I knew he didn't care but I waited to the last minute, giving him every possible chance. He can't be so stupid that in 29 years he hasn't figured out when our anniversary is. Dr. Phil says people don't forget these things they just choose not to remember. At least he didn't spend this anniversary with her. He's done that before. But I guess this the next best thing......he's with her now. Why can't I just ignore it? Why does it still have to hurt so much. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. And these weekends are the worst. Sometimes I have to take a sleeping pill to go to sleep because I'm afraid if I lay there awake and alone I might give in and do myself in. When I know he's with her I just lay there and ache. He's up there screwing her and I can't even remember the last time I got a hug! And it's not as if I could go find some love. Nobody would want a boob-less, half bald, half crippled hunk of nothing.
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Hey sweetie! My heart is just aching for you right now. I want to wrap my arms around you and give you a hug and tell you everything will be ok. I'm so sorry that he is being an ass! How cold and hurtful he is being to you. I agree with Dr. Phil. I don't think people forget something like this. I think their head is so far up their as... nevermind. I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad. I just wish I could take all the pain from you and promise that things will be ok.
I'm glad you aren't doing yourself in. You have children and a grand baby. They need you and are worth living for.
If there is anything I can do, let me know. Please know I'm here for you. I will keep you in my prayers my darling.
Gentle hugs to you!
Amanda
wakinyantechate28
I am here for you. Love and hUgs at this hard time!
staceyhtchns
hey...I care...and so do other people here. Why put yourself through this...you have a life to live lady!!!!and you have children and grandchildren to love and make memories with.You also have friends here that care if your around or not...so stop this..he is not worth it...none of it!!!!.You are more than no Boobs and some hair...You have a beautiful kind and loving soul!..Do not waste this on people who will not give you the time of day. Do not shed one more tear for this person who cannot be bothered to hug you! You have this life...live it! xoxoxo - love ya - Shell
Haiku
Shell is 100% right! Your husband is not worth the effort to even be upset over. You are a beautiful person. Save your love for those who deserve it and dont spend another second loving such a selfish, shallow man. I wish we could build a great big home for people who are so alone like us so we could all have others around who love and care for us. Hey.... that is a good idea. Something to think more about. It is sad that we all live so far apart. There must be a way we could move closer together and be each other's support. I will pray about that and ask God to make a way for us.
rrowley