Update...
November 15, 2009 10:50am
Well some shit has gone down recently...
- One of my old close mates who ive known for years died about 2 weeks ago... she overdosed... she has …
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EmmaLouize
3:52pm, November 1, 2009
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About Me
EmmaLouize
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About Me
Hiya, my names Emma and im a dancer. I am currently taking a gap year, and am hopefully going to college in a year to do dance / musical theatre.
Hiya, my names Emma and im a dancer. I am currently taking a gap year, and am hopefully going to college in a year to do dance / musical theatre.
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Interests
Dance....Singing.....Drama.... but mainly Dance (Ballet and Jazz specifically though i do love tap, modern, contemporary, street n salsa n all)
Dance....Singing.....Drama.... but mainly Dance (Ballet and Jazz specifically though i do love tap, modern,
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Recent Activity
November 15
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EmmaLouize and Christine10 are now friends 5:43pm
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EmmaLouize gave kmw a hug 1:57pm
hiya darlin, ive really not been on DS in sooooo long... not properly anyway... seen yur new photos...…
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EmmaLouize wrote a journal entry: Update... 10:50am
Well some -- has gone down recently... - One of my old close mates who ive known for years died about…
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EmmaLouize posted a new photo 9:31am
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EmmaLouize posted a new photo 9:31am
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Journal
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Sooo depressed...
October 26, 2009 4:53pm
I dont know whats wrong with me at the moment... I feel really depressed... i mean REALLY!!!... Im still at the priory 3 days a week... When does it …
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Don't know what to do!!!! :(
September 28, 2009 3:55pm
Ive been an inpatient for 2 months, i've been a day patient for a further month, and im still a day patient, but have been cut down to 3 days a …
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hey long time no talk whats up!
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Thanks
thanks hun for journal comment,means ALOT=D
hope ure okay? xxxxxx 
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here a hug hope you feel better
Gold Star
Nice to see you again and I'm glad to see your spirits are high. Watch this video and get inspired and feel proud of yourself. What you do is a gift to this world and we cant live without the arts for it's the one of the only things that feed our very souls and makes us go on. Never give up and know your doing the right things and one day, it's you that we may be watching on these videos. Nice work.
Flower
Dont worry, just think that when you get healthy, you dont have to keep thinking about it, and it doesnt run your life, so many people are normal weight and they look better than better, not fat at all they are really skinny so you just remember, get through it thinking about how it wont run your life anymore.
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
: BulimiaI have been bulimic for 2 years ish n its been the WORST 3 years of my life... Im determined to get better but... its not working
Treatments
- Dancing Working / Worked
- Dance is usually where i am happiest of course i have good days and bad days there too.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Finding it somewhat helpful yet am still reluctant to talk in groups which probs isnt helpin as much!
- Lexapro Not Working
- Didnt work - made me feel lower but also made me feel like my emotions were supressed n i couldnt cry or release them.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Prozac Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Im not sure - some days what he says goes in n i feel like im regaining control then others i think its a waste of time completely
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- IP most likely saved my life!!
- Walking Working / Worked
- Helps take my mind off bingeing and gives me a chance to just think with no distractions
Close Self-Injury
Started SI when i was about 9 yrs old dealing with a friends death... I spoze its only recently started up again over the past 2 years... Its a way i deal with my ED... i hate myself for it and am ashamed... but for me... cutting helps coz it gives me physical pain to focus on and relieves me of the emotional pain i go through with my ED for a while
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Had counselling for it a while back... It worked at the time after a long while but now i am having trouble again - im hoping once ED gets sorted everything else will follow!
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
My close m8 commited suicide on 30/10/09... Just found out... Dont know wot else to say right now!
Open Children Of Divorced Parents
My parents divorced when i was 8 after he had 2 affairs... I havent seen or spoken to my dad for 10 years and im happy about that - my sister see's him - just thought i'd join to try help out anyone goin through this at the moment coz i know wot your goin through :) x
Open Anger Management
Well... i had a few anger issues when i was younger - i was made to go to anger management classes when i was 11 - 13 yrs old
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
A boyfriend... I was 15.. him 19... He would grab, scream, throw things, hit, punch, slam me against walls and once pushed me down a flight of stairs... I pblocked these memories out for so so long... but they were unexpectedly brought up yesterday and the memories and feelings came back so clear it was almost like it was happening now not 3 years ago!... Never told ANYONE before yesterday.
Treatments
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Thats how i deal with it.. apparently so anyway...
- Leave Working / Worked
- Left one night... never saw or heard from him ever again... its been almost 3 and a half years
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Only briefly as part of my ED councelling
- Talking Considering
- dont know weather to confide in someone! may help may make it worse :S
Open Depression - Teen
Im not yet diagnosed with depression... Ive got an assessment appointment with the mental health team next week. I have been on anti-depressants for my bulimia for a while now... but it has neither helped my bulimia or my mood... Im becoming less and less motivated...my mood swings are extreme... i drink almost every day... i miss work and dance.. i cut more frequently and my eating disorder is plumiting out of control even more.. ive just been suspended from dance..lifes goin down the pan atm!
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- love art... keeps my mind occupied
- Music Working / Worked
- LOVE MUSIC... couldnt live without my ipod... or singing... or my online composition thingy
- Prozac Not Working
- im on it for my bulimia... havent noticed any effects neither adverse or otherwise...
- Writing Working / Worked
- Writing helps... a lot... get my feelings out!
Open Alcoholism
My alcohol intake has increased over the past few months n im now at the stage where im drinkin every day.... i dont know how to stop!!
Treatments
- AA Meetings Considering
Open Sexual Abuse
On top of/alongside of the physical abuse, he would force me to have sex, threaten to carry on hitting me if i didnt have sex, and blackmailing me into sex. I still cant tell if it was rape but i didnt exactly resist coz i knew i would get physical abuse if i did! am confused!
Treatments
Open Rape
He threatened me to have sex, blackmailed me into it, forced me to have sex when i didnt want to and im told its still rape even if i didnt try to fight him off for fear of more physical abuse
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Talking Considering
Open Miscarriage
I was 15... It was my boyfriend's who was physically and sexually abusive to me... i wanted the baby, he didnt so anyway i miscarried. I felt in my heart it was a boy so i named him Damien Ryley and i miss him every day!! but i know he is up with the other angels in heaven lookin down on me.
Treatments
- Writing Working / Worked
- I write to my baby a fair bit and i know he is listening to what i say. It helps to write down my feelings. I also have a memorial on a memorial site for him which i write on which helps.
Open Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Female
Type: Genital HerpesRecently had a suspected outbreak of the HSV-II virus... not had results bak yet tho!!
