macatac's Journal

I'm not doing so well...still sober...just not doing so well.

Not sure what's wrong. I just feel "blah". I am bored, but don't want to do anything. I am lonely, but I don't want to be social. I am sad, but I don't exactly want to be happy. I want somebody to fix my problems, but I don't want my problems fixed.

Sometimes my stay-at-home mom life feels so meaningless. The small things I do around the house feel unimportant when I am in one of these moods. These moods make me want to cry, but I don't know what I'm crying about. It's so hard to crawl out of this hole when I don't know how I got here in the first place or what dug the hole to begin with. How do you address a problem when you don't know what it is?

Are these typical feelings after quitting drinking?

I also went and got DNA testing done to see if I have Huntington's Disease. I am scared, but very, very anxious to find out. I hate having to wait.

I am hating a lot of things right now.