Journal

Ok, so.... I hate this time of year. Call me a Scrooge, whatever you like. My grandmother and uncle died shortly after Christmas when I was 12, and last year, my aunt died shortly BEFORE Christmas. This time of year is never as happy for me as I'd like it to be. The sight of the tree with all it's lights and decorations doesn't fill me with joy and wonder, it just makes me cry. And I bitterly despise cold weather. Not to mention colds and the flu. Yeah, I try to be outwardly cheerful, and most of the time I succeed. And it's not even that I'm grumpy or really Scrooge-y, this time of year just makes me sad, and the weather makes my head hurt.

On the bright side, though, I AM getting my finances back on track. With my parents' help, but I'm doing it. My best friend's wedding is coming up, and I'm taking some vacation time from work the week after Christmas. So I'll have time to relax while I'm finishing up the wedding plans. Maybe I'll even be able to find a new job. I certainly hope so.... Great Clips is a terrible company to work for, and I don't care who knows I said that. :P

Good day to all, and I hope everyone's winter is going better than mine, so far!

     Well, two and a half weeks to go until Christmas... And on the third of January, it's my mom's 52nd birthday, and my best friend's wedding day! We had her bridal shower last night, and that was fun. Even though I didn't stay long, seen as how I wasn't feeling too great. Taco Bell for lunch just doesn't agree with me anymore.  :( 

     I hate that the economy is crap at Christmas. I still have my boyfriend, his dad and brother, my dad, and my brother to buy for, not to mention Jenna's (that's the best friend) wedding present to buy, and the rest of a bride's maid's dress to pay for. Thankfully though, the dress is only about another $40, and it fit okay as it was made, so I won't have to worry about alterations. Or shoes, since the three of us that are bride's maids have agreed on black shoes, and I already have some that will work perfecty. So now, we just have to arrange catering, flowers, bachelorette party, get the final plans for the cake (my mom's making it), and God only know what else. Lol!

     I can't believe the end of another year is coming up so fast. It seems like it wasn't too long ago that I was so happy to be celebrating my first Christmas with Ross, and now we've been together for almost a year and a half. So many things are rotten right now, between money and being dissatisfied at work, but it seems like Ross and I are just wonderful. We have disagreements about some things, like my being "wedding horny," as he calls it. But all in all, things couldn't be better. I guess you really do have to know real misery before you can find happiness. It's good to know that this is probably the man I will marry, and that makes me ecstatic. Right now, I can think of nothing better than spending the rest of my life with this man who loves me just the way I am. Yay! *smile*