Join Now
brianscott 
4:37pm, October 27, 2008
I'll have to ramble a little to get to the point I'm trying to make.
I tested positive almost 19 years ago, in November 1989. I was intentionally infected by a partner who was positive. I always had safe sex, but trusted one person, who happened to be the wrong person to trust.
So I considered myself to be gay most of my life and have decided I don't want to be gay. I never was happy with men even though I was in a couple small relationships, well, four years any way.
That's why I moved to Richmond, VA, to change my life. I knew if I stayed in Seattle I couldn't do it with all the people I knew. I'm currently living with my mom in Richmond until I find a place of my own. I still need to decide if I want to stay in Richmond. The healthcare here is not the best in the world, especially compared to Seattle.
I came across this board thinking there has to be others who are going through the issue of gay to straight, but not necessarily having HIV/AIDS, which makes things even more difficult to find a partner. I know how hard it can be to find a partner as it is.
I've haven't been sexually active for some time and haven't even dated for years but would like to find the right person who can be understanding of my situation. To add to the puzzle which is me, I'm LDS and active in the church.
Comments
Well, Brian, welcome to DS HIV Support Group... I think you'll like it here. I'm not poz, but my husband is. You can read up on how he got infected on my profile page. I just wanted to welcome you, and comment on how courageous you are to completely start over clear across the country! Wow! Was it hard leaving your ID doctor in Seattle? Gosh, I'm sure you depended on him/her....
What is LDS? Is that Mormonism? I just can't remember... I'm a Christian and attend a Nazarene church in the Midwest.
Anyway, good luck with everything!
DebraP
DebraP, yes, LDS is Mormon or The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.
Yes, it was hard to leave my doctor in Seattle because he handled all my primary care and prescriptions. I only had to see another doctor when something was wrong he didn't know about, which was rare. He was considered to be one of the best doctors in the Nation and I left him behind for not knowing what I was going to find.
He's been a big help in getting me good care over here. Unfortunately I've had to drive to Washington DC to a clinic there is get my health care. I can't find anyplace here in Richmond that has decent health care of anyone that will manage my pain management for me. They are affraid to write me pain pills for the amount I take.
For now, the clinic is working, but it is a two hour drive when traffic is excellent. Most days it is not when you get in the DC area so it adds 30 minutes to an hour to the trip.
I just pray I can keep my health up here. I made it this far, I would hate to see my health come crashing down now. I at least need to make that 20 year mark Nov 2009.
brianscott