Ozarksgirl's Journal

Oh the power of facebook.  The guy i've been dating on and off for 9 years was in on leave from the Navy and today all this pictures popped up on facebook with him with another girl.  So I post a comment something like "you tell me you love me then the same day your off taking pictures with this girl."  Yea I know i'm passive agressive...anyway... almost immediately I get an email from another girl saying she's dating him too.  So she asked questions and I answered I have no reason to lie.  I also told her what he'd to.  Not even an hour later he did exactly what I said he would... he called me a crazy bitch and is trying to make me sound unstable so the other girlfriends pretend I don't exist.  He was my life for years... now I am so disgusted with myself for loving someone so heartless and inconsiderate.  He was a waste of 9 years.  Now i'm just scared because I've never really been alone and now I am alone, sick, poor, and struggling.  I know someday my life will get better i'm just hoping I'm strong enough to get there.  I've delt with the loss of my dad, my mothers sickness, losing everything (financially), being cheated on/wedding called off from the above ass hole, and being sick.  I feel like i'm screaming and no one can hear me to help.