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Ozarksgirl 
9:10pm, July 8, 2009
I have been fighting these last years to finish college regardless of the obstacles i've faced. At first my college career was put on hold when my parents divorced. I moved home in order to take care of my mother. She has severe RA and was left with absolutely nothing. Well i've finally managed to go back to college... and now I have RA. I have been challenged repeatedly in life and I know I overcome this and make the best out of the situation.
Having RA has really changed my perspective on my life. I do admit that for a few years I suffered from depression while I delt with the divorce which brought into the light all the abuse I suffered as a child. I had a great deal of anger towards my alcoholic father and even more disgust at the man who basically left my mother to starve and I quote "hopefully die since she can't afford her meds." Now that I have RA I have let go of alot of my anger. Being angry at my father for being a drunk and all and all a horrible person seems to be a waste of time. I know now that it wasn't my fault that he did those things and I could never have changed the outcomes.
So now to my point about college. I have been going to school with the orgional purpose of making money so that I could never be left helpless like my mother was... so my major was a typical one that would be financially secure. After some time I realized I was miserable and decided to switch to history. It was only natural because I am very interested and I excell in all the courses. So now that i'm close to graduating... the question is what will i do with this degree.
I have been inspired by my diagnosis. I have been working closely with the Arthritis Foundation and have been very motivated to pursue a career in non-profit organizations. With it being an election year I always tend to sway towards a later political career also. I am now researching what it would take to be admitted into President Clinton's School of Public Service. I know i could do amazing things with the right opportunities and guidance. I have always had dreams of perhaps being the first woman governor of Arkansas or maybe holding a seat in the Senate. Or I could get ambitious and eye the white house lol. I just have so many thoughts right now and i'm just trying to get them in order. Its easy to dream but when the time comes to act on them you see everything in a different light.
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Sweetie (and yes, I get to call you that because I am 58), congratulations to you for pursuing your passion. I am delighted that you are looking to non-profits, politics, and other avenues. You are young enough that you have choices. Yes, you have RA but that is just a part of you When I was your age, I planned on becoming an English teacher. I took a year off school and decided law was my passion. I began law school in l973 and I haven't looked back.
I've talked to my son about following his passion and he is still trying to find it, but getting closer. He is thinking of linguistics. We'll see.
I wish you all the best in your search.
Many hugs,
Lynne
lycesq
You go girl! I am inspired by your strength (not for the first time either). Its good that you are chasing your dreams despite your past/present circumstances. Keep trying new things until you find what suits you. It might surprise you what that turns out to be. I fell into a couple of things when I wasn't looking.
saavik
my mother And I both have RA. she had it when she was a little girl and I got it when i was 19 around 7 years ago. it was very hard for me that first but now Im going all i cant do to not think about.
wfranze
Wow, you are inspiring! If more people could be like you, this world would be an awesome place. Great job for going after your dreams!
Hugs!!
--Sarah
SarahKeturah
You are amazing! Like Lynne, when I was your age, my only ambition was to be an English teacher (I do have a degree in English literature and linguistics) but, then, as time went by, I became more ambitious… I ended up with a PhD in Psychology, an international career and lots of travel...I was lucky to have a truly amazing life…In retrospect, I wish I started being more ambitious...But then what matters is that you find something that ignites your passion... If you do, you are bound to succeed... And, once you do, life will present you with more opportunities than you can imagine...Life is an adventure for those who dare...I am sure it will be a big adventure for you. Hugs. Me
D141092
Through my life's travels its become apparent to me that everyone has their achilles heel...sometimes its something we can see, such as a physical handicap, but for most people it's not something we see on the outside...like rape victims for example. So I've come to the conclusion we can let it hold us back or we can accept we can't change it & strive to fulfil our dreams. So seize your dream & take your first step today!
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