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SockFuzz 
9:26am Wednesday
Hubby's not feeling good. He's been in the bathroom all day. I'm not sure if he's coming down with something, or if it is sides from the Lexapro. He doesn't have a fever, so I'm hoping its just something he ate.
Other than that, it's been a long weekend. The girls were doing various activities. I had kids in and out of the house all weekend. I tried to catch up on laundry and work on some house projects but I didn't get very far.
I've been having a little anxiety and guilt over avoiding my mom. She went home from the nursing home two weeks ago. I've only been calling her about every other day. I've seen her twice. I just don't have the patience lately. It sounds bad of me....I know it is....but I've gotten to the point where I don't even answer the phone when she calls most of the time. Although she has this uncanny ability to call me JUST when I am walking in the door, going to the bathroom or sitting down to dinner!!! I kid you not! EVERY day!!!.....and she calls me MULTIPLE times a day. I know she is bored and she is lonely....but she has allowed it to be this way. Until she puts her foot down and insists that my brother and his wife make her house presentable, she can't ... or rather WONT have visitors. I've also given up arguing about the getting the ramp put on the house. He wont do it and she wont make him. She also wont get her leg braces like she needs to. She doesn't want to wear them. So I told her I wasn't going to be taking her out anymore. I'm not going to risk her falling and hurting herself. She can barely walk the three steps it takes FLAT to transfer from her wheelchair to the toilet, but she thinks she is going to walk down her brick front steps (4 of them). Whatever. I get too upset about this stuff. I know she has several doc appointments scheduled. I don't know how she plans on getting there. We shall see.
Another issue that came up this past week was that her home health nurse never showed up. She is supposed to have PT on T and Th. and the HHN is supposed to come on M, W, F to help her with wound care, bathing and meds etc. So when she didn't show up on Monday, mom asked me to come give her a bath. She hadn't had one since before she left the nursing home!!! I asked her why she didn't call the service about the nurse. She game me a lame excuse and I asked her for the number. She yelled at me to "leave it alone".................... OK FINE! I dont' have the energy to deal with this anyways. It makes me sad. But with hubby starting treatment and all the various doc visits we have going on lately, I just cannot deal with my mother and the situation over there at her house. It's a flippin pig sty!!!! OOOO it makes me so mad!
Anyways, my oldest is almost done with her driving class. She just has to log in her car hours and she's official. By this coming Saturday, she will have her legal drivers license. Sigh......
My hubby's side business has fizzled since he hasn't been putting any energy into it lately. So we are hurting from the loss of that added income. I'm a little anxious over what will happen if he gets sick from treatment and can't work. I'll definitely have to pick up a second job to make ends meet. I have been having nightmares lately about how I will afford things if he dies. Then I get mad at myself for thinking selfishly. Vicious cycle.
And how was your week?
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Well I was about say horrible..... but nothing compared to yours.
Your mother was never in telemarketing was she? I ask because that is waht they seem to have the ability to do with their calls.
Pity your brother and wife will not start doing stuff that needs to be done. From the outside - and with very little past information to go on it is almost as if they are trying to isolate your mother. IF that is possibly happening then that is a form of abuse and something that really needs to be looked into.
Hope that hubby feels better and that you can once again get into the bathroom - Pity about the side business but chances are he just can't do it right now - maybe when he has finished treatment he will get back to it.
Look after YOU and your husband and kids and hopefully your mother will come to her senses soon.
Hathani
No THEY aren't isolating her....she is doing it to herself. She is a very stubborn person. She will not cross or say anything that goes against my brother. He has always been spoiled and she baby's him to this day. No one can criticize him or she becomes their enemy. I don't play along and she gets mad at me because I don't overlook his ways. He is 38 years old and living in my mothers home with his wife. (they got married last year) Mind you, I do appreciate that SOMEONE is living with her. She wouldn't move in with me or my aunt because she refused to leave HER house. So at least she isn't alone with them there. But they aren't the most organized or clean people. And she USED to have a very nice home. But they have ruined it. It literally smells like a kennel because they have three HUGE dogs. Dirt and drool everywhere. They are not bathed regularly either. Plus no one cleans up after themselves. Dirty dishes are always in the sink. Laundry isn't done. ...uggghh it goes on and on. So consequently my mother will not ALLOW her friends over to visit because she is ashamed. See when she was in the nursing home, she was happy as a lark because she had people there every day. Now she is back home and resorted to her stubborn ways.
SockFuzz
Sock..
Wish I could give words of advice my sweet Sock....
You have always given me words of wisdom! I am going through the same ordeal as we speak and can only feel your pain! Sometimes it is hard to get up in the morning! I am wishing both of us better days! It looks like I will have my toe amputated! Not looking forward to that, but I guess it is something that happens to diabetics. I wish you the best girl!!
Mark
MarkusO
My week was selfishly blissful by anyone's standards. I couldn't cope with what you are trying to cope with!!!!! All I can say is 'Good Luck' and hope things get better.
Craig
craigchome
Sock........I'm sorry to hear all this....I do hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you.......I can relate to the MIL issue (well mother for me, MIL for me)..........just do the best you can and take care of YOURSELF:)
debbear
I read that the lexapro's side effects may cause cause headaches, nausea, sweating, and dizziness.
How much is his daily dose ?
When is he schedule to start the combo therapy?
If he does need to take some time off from work, can't he go on sick leave, and receive Unemployment Benefits?
That's what I did when i did my treatment, I applied for a year of sick leave, and continued to receive 65% of my income.
But most men do continue to work, or take the time off to get well, then resume to their job post treatment.
Good luck to him, at slaying the dragon.
Take it easy girl, you have way to much to deal with, it's good in a way that your brother is dealing with your mom, since you won't have any time when you hubby really gets into treatment.
Take care, Mckenzie
one day at the time.
Mckenzie