The Days of Wine and Roses
November 9, 2009 11:29am
They are not long, the weeping and the laughter, Love and desire and hate: I think they have no portion in us after We pass the gate. They are not …
crankyoldman 
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About Me
crankyoldman
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About Me
Sobriety date Oct 31, 2007. I have been around DS for a very long time and love many of the people here, old friends of mine. Many others I knew have come and gone. A few of the best have died since I was here last, mercilessly few. Alcoholism took two that I know of, wonderful people who by the time they knew what hit them were too far gone to save. But they came to this community for support and found friends for life, short though it was. God bless them... When I first got here I was still sick from my last binge, and only had 5 weeks of sobriety. I stumbled onto this community and the people, the support, the love and wisdom from this community bouyed me and helped me continue on my path of sobriety. My sanity has mostly returned but you never know it by the way I act. One of the things that brings me back here is the laughter we shared and for some back then, that was all they had to keep them from giving up. The friends here who shared the fun times with me and the few I may have helped with kindness and concern are a warm memory of the process of coming out of the fog. There were, some may recall, mistakes I made then, people I gave heartburn. I'm not above making amends as best I can for the things I did or do today. The best way for me to start with most people is to extend my hand and take responsibility for my part. And then I try to follow up with change and determination to not repeat it. I'm sometimes disappointed and find no forgiveness but such is the human condition and I can only soothe some resentments. I have struggled with many resentments of my own so I try to understand. Alcoholics Anonymous has, over the years, always been a port that I can sail to and weigh anchor in almost anyplace I find myself. My career as a consultant has taken me to 49 states and I've participated in fellowship in many cities, from Manhattan to Philadelphia, as well as individual member's homes. Though I do latch onto the tenets of the twelve steps program, I have found it impossible and counterproductive to try to fashion my own walk exactly like anyone else's. I try to listen to others at meetings or here at DS and watch to learn what works best and what makes sense to me. I have a long-time friend who has sponsored me that I stay in touch with too. It's a process some call recovery.
Sobriety date Oct 31, 2007. I have been around DS for a very long time and love many of the people here, old friends of mine. Many others I knew have come and gone. A few of the best have died since I was here last, mercilessly few. Alcoholism took two that I know of, wonderful people who by the time they knew what hit them were too far gone to save. But they came to this community for support and found friends for life, short though it was. God bless them... When I first got here I was still sick
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I love to make friends and laughter when I can. Travel has been not only my bread and butter but my passion as well. My interest in science is either the cause of or a result of my career in the nuclear electric generating field. I recently relocated to Washington state to work.
I love to make friends and laughter when I can. Travel has been not only my bread and butter but my passion
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Recent Activity
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40 hugs received, 27 hugs given, 11 photo uploads, 3 journal comments, 2 photo comments
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crankyoldman gave terriDasilva a hug 7:48pm
It was great to chat with ya Terri... I'll tell K hi for you if you don't leave her a hug or some --.....…
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crankyoldman changed their mood to Bad 4:38pm
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crankyoldman updated their status 4:38pm
When something's wrong with my baby... something's wrong with me....…
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crankyoldman changed their mood to Horrible 4:38pm
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crankyoldman gave rainbowbubblz a hug 4:36pm
I guess you aren't "available"..... that's what your profile says anyway...... twin.…
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Hi! A mutual friend told me about your interest in the Diabetes board. :) Don't be alarmed by the tension. There are a handful who like to stir trouble. Like on any board, ignore the trolls and use the real info to your benefit. Come on over and post!
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Well I care about your opinion! lol
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Thats all!
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my twin who has straight hair. (o;
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You're so sweet, but I hate those pix of me. They were for your eyes only, u! (o;
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Close Alcoholism
Took my first drink of alcohol at age 15 and knew I had found magic. Looking back today, I know that I was hooked that first day. My first realization that I may have a problem came in 1982 when I got a DUI and became the first person in my family to see the inside of a jail. Grateful to be sober today and relieved that the obsession is gone.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Antabuse Not Working
- Actually, when I tried Antabuse I only did it to please my wife. Not really wanting to be sober then, I drank anyway and she kicked me to the curb.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Over the years I've tried many ways to stay sober. Sometimes cold turkey was so painful that the period of temporary sobriety lasted longer I think
- Detox Working / Worked
- I've been to detox more than once over the years. It always worked in that I left detox a few days later sober. It was better to vomit there than under some bridge.
- Folic Acid Working / Worked
- Supplements and good food always made a return to health a quicker process.
- Librium Working / Worked
- Benzodiazapenes can make the crash landing of withdrawals softer.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- Have gone to inpatient and outpatient treatment a few times over the years. I didn't manage to stay sober until the last time. So was it the treatment that worked?
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- Have gone to inpatient and outpatient treatment a few times over the years. I didn't manage to stay sober until the last time. So was it the treatment that worked?
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Sleep is one of the benefits of continued sobriety and was often the only relief during bouts of drinking.
- Willpower Not Working
- For me, willpower was most often my downfall. It's hard to explain in a few words, but determination to lean on God means getting out of His way.
Close Deep Vein Thrombosis (DVT)
25 year history of superficial and DVT. Mostly it always seems to turn out I get an inflamed vein and there's a chance of clotting but usually there's no clot.
Treatments
- Coumadin Working / Worked
- I guess it's working on a daily basis but I do get clots occasionally and inflamed veins two or more times a year.
