Lannah's Journal

"WHY" 

Everyday i wonder why

Why this is happening to me

And i dont know what to do about it

I feel so lost

No one knows, sees or understands it

But i FEEL IT!!

I dont know who i am

and what i am, what i want

Sometimes im happy, hyper

But mostly im sad, depressed, suicidal..

I feel i am nobody at all

Just no one......

I grew up thinking

I have no presonality..

Who the fuck am i !???

My identity gone

Without you i am nothing

lost n empty inside

I am lonely, in my head

Everybody i know

Goes away in the end

I feel caged

Imprissioned inside myself

There is nothing left for me..

in this selfish world

Time to go

time to say

Goodbye

Farewell

Im sorry

This is where Im coming from

And this is where im going to

Ive tried before to kill myself

Non worked

I am still here

Even more i tried to get better

But nothing really helps

And so time goes by

Everyday i feel more helpless, usless n wasted

I feel apart from J and S

theres nothing left for me

I cry everyday

I cut most days

Deeper deeper

 To forget about the inner pain

I use to take meds or alcohol

Cutting burning

Im one big wound

Now im an adict

An adict to pain

Locked in me pain

 that is burning inside me

All i can do is waiting

for help and holding on

Maybe one day i will be better

Please dont go

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