Journal

I'm not doing well today.  I've been trying to help what I thought was a stray cat find a home.

Recently I discovered he has a home but apparently he's not wanted.  If I call animal control

he'll be taken away and destroyed (I know that for a fact).  I've done a lot of checking and

there really aren't any places to take strays.  So my choices are rather grim.  I have a friend

who's trying to help me find a place for this cat but in the meantime I'm afraid I'm falling into a

very dark place.  I have a therapist who I've been with a long time and I love and trust her.

But unfortunately she has this view of the world to just trust everything to God and what is

meant to be will be.  But how can you stand by when somebody needs help and do nothing?

But I realize making myself sick isn't helping anyone. 

This world just seems to be getting sadder and darker.  I'm actually writing this from work, trying to fight back tears and nobody seems to notice.  I swear I could burst into flames and

nobody would notice.