Val's Journal

it has been such a horrible freakin' weekend!!  for starters, my dad/abuser called about doing something for father's day.  of course he called while i was at work last friday and once again i  had a damn mental breakdown at work and instantly became completely useless for the rest of the day.  my mom has been in a bitchy mood lately and it's just getting worse.  i'm getting frustrated cause everyone is just swarming around my mom saying, "oh, poor baby," and people are telling me, "oh, well you need to make sure you take care of your mother."  no one seems to give a damn about my depression and suicidality right now.  a couple of my co-workers are concerned about me and they're gonna make an emergency crisis appointment with SEABHS for me either tomorrow or tuesday, so i am sooo not looking forward to that, but i know that these people care and i know i really need it.  well, that's all i feel like say for right now.  everyone take care and i'll ttyl.