ZXJ’s Profile

About Me

I am a 46 year old woman with 3 children and now, I'm divorced and surviving. Okay...here is the deal. I married (what I thought) the man of my dreams. We actually planned to have a child even though we were in our 40's. Together we had 4 children...his...mine and ours. Together, we had a boy who is 4 now and one day...POOF...he met someone online and he decided that she was important enough to leave it all behind. Big drama...she called me and told me to let him go. I used their tool of mass destruction to look into her past (love the public records and the internet). I found out that she used to practice psychology but, lost her license, that she published articles in a website for the wicca. She had told him that she was never married...I found a divorce decree and many other things. I told him that he broke my heart over someone he didn't know. He was shocked but, I stayed to fight for our marriage. He accepted to try but, didn't. I had no choice but to take one step at a time after crawling in a hole with my pain. I found out that our child has autism which put me in another unknown world and as I read all about the "SPECTRUM" I realized that my ex-husband (weird calling him that still), may be autistic as well because of everthing he put me through and the "disconnect" that I experienced with him. I realized that it is not my fault and as I gather my pieces, he will not be able to be solid and cosistent for anyone.

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"Listen to me...as you would if I were talking to myself. I am admitting to you my inmost thoughts, and am having it out with myself, merely making use of you as a pretext." -- Seneca the Younger