Who needs trouble!
June 25, 2009 9:10pm
Today my narcississtic daugher stopped me from being able to reach her by phone.
Ask me if I am going to let THAT get …
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sjaypetwo
1:19pm, May 27, 2009
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About Me
sjaypetwo
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About Me
My Present: Now that the worst is over, I plan to enjoy life! Healing well underway, and going nicely. Just learned a valuable lesson: that it's all about me. Healing, meditation, acceptance, self-acceptance leads to being able to finally take hold and do let go... My Past: A female loner who has difficulty maintaining relationship with others. Today, 5/24/08, I decided to add my events. I was beaten and left for dead rescued by my grandma age 3, Sexually abused by hermaphrodite babysitter and later beaten by same babysitter at age 4 resulting in 3 day stay in hospital: upon arriving home from hospital struck dead in the chest by mom lost consciousness and had an out of body experience. I came to realizing 2 things: one my mother did not want me and two I was in the worst pain in my life. Manage to survive that until I was sexually abused for over a year at age 5 by male cousin who discovered I was being left alone at home. Then I entered school found out I had developed dyslexia and had to be put in special classes for first 3 yrs of school. Isolated alone, uable to fit in at school my alter ego 'loner' is born. Found christianity at age 12 and feel into a crisis of faith at age 14 after I was attacked, beaten, drugged then gang raped an ordeal lasting over 36 hours. Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder and Major Depression are my diagonises. Today I survive but not without some scarring physically, emotionally and mentally.
My Present: Now that the worst is over, I plan to enjoy life! Healing well underway, and going nicely. Just learned a valuable lesson: that it's all about me. Healing, meditation, acceptance, self-acceptance leads to being able to finally take hold and do let go... My Past: A female loner who has difficulty maintaining relationship with others. Today, 5/24/08, I decided to add my events. I was beaten and left for dead rescued by my grandma age 3, Sexually abused by hermaphrodite babysitter and later
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Interests
[MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR MICHEAL JACKSON...( )... Thank you for your music. ] I do Meditation, counseling and Tai Chi. Tai kwon do forms. Reading science fiction, drawing nature, and walking. Riding my bicycle!
[MOMENT OF SILENCE FOR MICHEAL JACKSON...( )... Thank you for your music. ] I do Meditation, counseling
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Peace
June 15, 2009 9:24pm
Today is a easy peaceful evening slipping into night. The cycle is nearly complete as it was before 6 am and witnessed twilight …
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KUDOS TO Me!!!
June 6, 2009 4:07pm
I love me!!!
I am soooo proud of me that I am:
smart
compassionate,
giving
trustworthy and although I am 45yrs and counting,
I am …
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Done!
May 27, 2009 1:06pm
Some things are better left unsaid.
Some better left undone.
Glad to be free, glad to be me.
Meditation works/is working. Learning …
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Today is a good Day
May 15, 2009 1:54pm
Today is a good day for me and I love it. It's not everyday that I can breathe without worrying that something will break or fall …
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Moment of Peace
Sending to all my sister survivors: one of my all time favorite songs,
Shaking the Tree-Peter Gabriel
We are shaking the tree...
Waiting your time, dreaming of a better life
Waiting your time, so much more than just a wife
You dont have to do what your mother has done, she has done
This is your life, this new life has begun
Its your day - a womans day
Its your day - a womans day
Turning the tide, you are on the incoming wave
Turning the tide, you know you are nobodys slave
Find your brothers and sisters
Who can hear all the truth in what you say
They can support you when youre on your way
Its your day - a womans day
Its your day - a womans day
We are shaking the tree...
Theres nothing to gain when theres nothing to be lost
Theres nothing to gain if you stay behind and count the cost
Make a decision that you can be who you can be, you can be
Tasting the fruit, come to the liberly(? ) tree
Its your day - a womans day
Its your day - a womans day
Changing your ways, changing those surrounding you
Changing your ways, more than any man can do
Open your heart, show him the anger and pain, so you heal
Maybe hes looking for his womanly side, make him feel
You had to be so strong
And you do nothing wrong, nothing wrong at all
Were gonna to break it down
We have to shake it down, shake it all around
We are shaking the tree...-
I’m With You
When you walk through a storm hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone. 
Little Love
Hi. How are you doing? Sending you love and huggs.
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Support Groups
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Survivor of multiple traumas suffering from complex PTSD.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Another facet for the demonstrated: telling of the tale.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music soothes the savage... Beware it can often trigger...
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Ongoing lab experiment that has yielded it's share of creative solutions.
- Reading Working / Worked
- In a word: Escape!
