WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED HERE, I POSTED AND SAID IT SAVED, SO FN CHOKED, FEEL LIKE SHIT, STREPT THROAT OR SOMETHING, I BLABED AWAY AND NOW IT IS GONE....I FUCKEN HATE COMPUTERS, HATE EVERYBODY, EVERYTHING ACTUALLY...
Need to be better tomorrow, need to work....not really, but want to..
DX: Mycoplasma Pneumonia, started antibiotics, slept for 2hrs and feel "this much" better, tiny little...Thanks for your caring and good wishes, I love you my DS friends.
Just realized that I have had this sickness every year around the same time for 15 years, is going along with BP, I get depressed, go hypo, do waaayyy too much, get run down, and here I am, missing my first day of work after only 2 weeks of employment, what the fuck!? I am pissed off, hate being sick...slept after taking 2 antibiotics, feel so, so, shitty, still...shitty, pissed off still...hopefully I will recover as this is my weekend to cover and my boss has to go away! Go figure, hope all of you are good...stay well...Tom will be home later today, he can help nurse me, he is a useless nurse! My 10 year old cares and does better, oh well..later, big hugs..xx
I still cannot believe how sick I am, I am so pissed off that I have to miss, only 1.5 days, of my new fabulous job...feel a little better today, still stuffed and coughing up partial pieces of my lung, GROSS!
Next year, I will be sure to watch this "pattern" has been happening since 18, I swear, I overdo it, think I am taking care of myself, then get sick...at least I didn't blame it on the meds this time...Thank God, it's not the meds, it is me and my immune system, I can never and will never catch up on the time lost during depression...wake up, stupid bitch, yes me, pay attention.
Today, I am still going to hang out with me, heal, and rest. Would love to drive into Calgary to see my VooDoo, essential oil man to pick up some immune and body boosting oils etc. Will see how I feel at 9, have been up since 130am, went to bed right after supper and a DQ blizzard, need some more fat cells to protect me, I figure...ha, ha.
Tom got home yesterday eve, he is not feeling well either, he will probably be next, he gets sicker than I do, I have to nurse him, hate this!! oh well, marriage sucks sometimes, ...enjoy my day, I will..
I cannot believe how irritated I got yesterday with peoples repetative questions on Lamictal especially. I reduced my Lamictal days ago because I was irritable then, husband pisses me off and so does my MOM, why me? I am the best ever and it is "ME" with the problem they say, give me a fucken break...live and walk in my stilletoes for a minute and see how you feel!! this support group has been awesome, been on since getting out of the hospital in Jan, signed up in April when felt better. Now, I am just getting annoyed and frustrated...that is why I stopped going to group support groups, because the newbies DON'T LISTEN TO THE EXPERTS...sitting in a room of newbies just induced bad feelings of the past depressions and manias so I didn't need to torture myself anymore.
I enjoy talking with my therapist, she doesn't degrade me, run me down, point out specifics, she knows who she is, and she listens to me and I listen to her. She is the one that suggested I join instead of watch this group because I have the expertise to contribute. "Expertise" that is me!! Got it, please don't bother me anymore, you know who you are and I am removing you from my list of so called "friends" as soon as I find the "remove/delete/ignore" key. These newbies are just inducing anger and frustration, don't need it, can try ignore it but the same fn thing comes up...do they not know how to read and review past posts??? piss me off, no more..
I am having a great early am, Tom is gone to Edmonton, I am starting to like having him away, Keerstin and I make a perfect Barney and Clyde, ha, ha..
SO RELIEVED!! I basically demoted myself in a round a bout way, still the same pay, ha, ha, for retail, no more management bullshit...hated it...still a nurse undercover, don't need the bs the fn bimbos have attempted to induce on me...now I work under them, ha, ha, pay back is a bitch, and the nice bitch is SUE!!! Can't wait to work today at noon, I am going to slack as much as is not obvious, I will never sweep, clean bathrooms, do windows etc. in this joint...the bitches didn't do their part on my watch and I sure the fuck ain't doing it for or with them. So happy to have tons of power and still always in control..
Now, I am making plans for a new career move, so my prediction...by September 2008 I will have a regular part-time, I said PART TIME position with a decent wage, great independent working environment and no fn bimbos in my face to train or watch or babysit...loving life...all the very best for me still!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED HERE, I POSTED AND SAID IT SAVED, SO FN CHOKED, FEEL LIKE SHIT, STREPT THROAT OR SOMETHING, I BLABED AWAY AND NOW IT IS GONE....I FUCKEN HATE COMPUTERS, HATE EVERYBODY, EVERYTHING ACTUALLY...
Need to be better tomorrow, need to work....not really, but want to..
mustangsue66
DX: Mycoplasma Pneumonia, started antibiotics, slept for 2hrs and feel "this much" better, tiny little...Thanks for your caring and good wishes, I love you my DS friends.
Just realized that I have had this sickness every year around the same time for 15 years, is going along with BP, I get depressed, go hypo, do waaayyy too much, get run down, and here I am, missing my first day of work after only 2 weeks of employment, what the fuck!? I am pissed off, hate being sick...slept after taking 2 antibiotics, feel so, so, shitty, still...shitty, pissed off still...hopefully I will recover as this is my weekend to cover and my boss has to go away! Go figure, hope all of you are good...stay well...Tom will be home later today, he can help nurse me, he is a useless nurse! My 10 year old cares and does better, oh well..later, big hugs..xx
mustangsue66
I still cannot believe how sick I am, I am so pissed off that I have to miss, only 1.5 days, of my new fabulous job...feel a little better today, still stuffed and coughing up partial pieces of my lung, GROSS!
Next year, I will be sure to watch this "pattern" has been happening since 18, I swear, I overdo it, think I am taking care of myself, then get sick...at least I didn't blame it on the meds this time...Thank God, it's not the meds, it is me and my immune system, I can never and will never catch up on the time lost during depression...wake up, stupid bitch, yes me, pay attention.
Today, I am still going to hang out with me, heal, and rest. Would love to drive into Calgary to see my VooDoo, essential oil man to pick up some immune and body boosting oils etc. Will see how I feel at 9, have been up since 130am, went to bed right after supper and a DQ blizzard, need some more fat cells to protect me, I figure...ha, ha.
Tom got home yesterday eve, he is not feeling well either, he will probably be next, he gets sicker than I do, I have to nurse him, hate this!! oh well, marriage sucks sometimes, ...enjoy my day, I will..
mustangsue66
I cannot believe how irritated I got yesterday with peoples repetative questions on Lamictal especially. I reduced my Lamictal days ago because I was irritable then, husband pisses me off and so does my MOM, why me? I am the best ever and it is "ME" with the problem they say, give me a fucken break...live and walk in my stilletoes for a minute and see how you feel!! this support group has been awesome, been on since getting out of the hospital in Jan, signed up in April when felt better. Now, I am just getting annoyed and frustrated...that is why I stopped going to group support groups, because the newbies DON'T LISTEN TO THE EXPERTS...sitting in a room of newbies just induced bad feelings of the past depressions and manias so I didn't need to torture myself anymore.
I enjoy talking with my therapist, she doesn't degrade me, run me down, point out specifics, she knows who she is, and she listens to me and I listen to her. She is the one that suggested I join instead of watch this group because I have the expertise to contribute. "Expertise" that is me!! Got it, please don't bother me anymore, you know who you are and I am removing you from my list of so called "friends" as soon as I find the "remove/delete/ignore" key. These newbies are just inducing anger and frustration, don't need it, can try ignore it but the same fn thing comes up...do they not know how to read and review past posts??? piss me off, no more..
I am having a great early am, Tom is gone to Edmonton, I am starting to like having him away, Keerstin and I make a perfect Barney and Clyde, ha, ha..
mustangsue66
SO RELIEVED!! I basically demoted myself in a round a bout way, still the same pay, ha, ha, for retail, no more management bullshit...hated it...still a nurse undercover, don't need the bs the fn bimbos have attempted to induce on me...now I work under them, ha, ha, pay back is a bitch, and the nice bitch is SUE!!! Can't wait to work today at noon, I am going to slack as much as is not obvious, I will never sweep, clean bathrooms, do windows etc. in this joint...the bitches didn't do their part on my watch and I sure the fuck ain't doing it for or with them. So happy to have tons of power and still always in control..
Now, I am making plans for a new career move, so my prediction...by September 2008 I will have a regular part-time, I said PART TIME position with a decent wage, great independent working environment and no fn bimbos in my face to train or watch or babysit...loving life...all the very best for me still!!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mustangsue66
wow! your a hoot!lol
ChristinaLynn