NO FRIEND REQUESTS, PLEASE!This is not how my life was supposed to be. I worked so hard, this illness took away everything I had. Love and prayers get me through each day. I have a lot of physical problems because of my mental and emotional problems. It's hard for me to get to the doc, I dont have my own car, I know there is testing and PT and other things I need to be going to, but it's so expensive and so hard to get a ride, my health just falls by the wayside.
NO FRIEND REQUESTS, PLEASE!This is not how my life was supposed to be. I worked so hard, this illness took away everything I had. Love and prayers get me through each day. I have a lot of physical problems because of my mental and emotional problems. It's hard for me to get to the doc, I dont have my own car, I know there is testing and PT and other things I need to be going to, but it's so expensive and so hard to get a ride, my health just falls by the wayside.
Reading. I'll read anything but true-crime. Recently got back into watching movies and some TV. I LOVE anything that makes me laugh. AnyONE who makes me laugh. I love to love others, make them feel loved, make others happy if I can. Laughter and love and smiles are contagious. Sometimes you have those moments that are so right, so good, you remember why you keep fighting.
Reading. I'll read anything but true-crime. Recently got back into watching movies and some TV. I LOVE
July 24, 2009 9:09pm
I think that if there is one song that really sums up the emotions of my life, this would be the one. It means so many things to me on so many …
I haven't heard from you in forever... Started to think you didn't love me anymore (LOL). Glad you liked the jpurnal entry. What's up with you. Have you been doing OK. I still have an ear infection, so I have to wait on the balance test until it's gone... Not sure what the "balance test" is or how it's done- new territory for me. I've been OK other than being really dizzy at times. Would love to talk with you!!! We can plan to do chat sometime soon if you'd like... Karen
Kissy face kissy face!!!!!! Hi babygirl! I saw you in K's journal and I had to pop in and show you some love. what is up with the sad face??? Need to talk????? Who do you want me to kill???
Thank you. (((((back at you)))))
39 going on 59, LOL!!!
good morning!!! hope that today goes well for you... the lamp didn't win this time... i think that it knows better than to talk back to me... i would put it outside... heheheeh.... loves and hugzzzz... karen :)
Just cuz I wanna so there!! HA!
Progress
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Have been agoraphobic since mid-teens. Has only gotten worse over the years. Any place official or formal, where I can't just walk out if I need to, I don't go. I just can't anymore. If I'm not able to reach my "safe zone", I panic.
Feb. 05, I was at work, I was fine, the next thing I knew I was in the hospital, my first major panic attack. My life changed overnight. Just like that. I tried to fight the anxiety disorder, it's been over four years now, I'm worse than ever. It's taken my life away. It's taken me away, left me with nothing but fear. This is my life now. I hate every second of it. The anxiety didn't go away, it brought it's friend depression with it.
One day I was fine, the next, my life as I knew it was over. Everything scares me now. EVERYTHING. I fought hard, but my brain won. It controls every aspect of my life. It took my life away from me, nothing I do to fight back makes it go away.
My only income is SSDI. I'm over 11 grand in debt, my estranged husband is responsible for about half of that, he won't give me a dime, he drinks away all his money. I'm trying to fix this situation, but I get so upset when I look at these bills and talk to the creditors, and there isn't anyone to help me. They don't understand that keeping a roof over my family's head comes first. It's so overwhelming, just talking about it makes me start crying.
