I'm a farmers daughter and enjoy all animals and children esp. my 9yr. old son. I'm definitely a Tomboy, at least at heart And I truly love life to it's fullest! Being human I'M JUST THAT human so occasionally I feel sad ....but I also feel happy! I'M 5'10'' athletic build. My family nor I understand my history of self-injury and I hear ''why would such a beautiful girl want to hurt herself!'' 1.I DON'T FEEL BEAUTIFUL and 2.I DONT ENJOY hurting myself , I know I need help, but what kind I'm not sure. I'm very alone and need friends so if your reading this , why not contact me?
I'm a farmers daughter and enjoy all animals and children esp. my 9yr. old son. I'm definitely a Tomboy, at least at heart And I truly love life to it's fullest! Being human I'M JUST THAT human so occasionally I feel sad ....but I also feel happy! I'M 5'10'' athletic build. My family nor I understand my history of self-injury and I hear ''why would such a beautiful girl want to hurt herself!'' 1.I DON'T FEEL BEAUTIFUL and 2.I DONT ENJOY hurting myself , I know I need help, but what kind I'm not sure.
I enjoy all activities, esp.sports walking, yoga and being active with my Son and Dog(Buster) and 2 cats(Cal and Babes). Staying healthy is my goal as much as possible these days. I'm the underachiever of a overachieving family! But I still take responsibility for my actions..and maybe that is why it's coming up on 4 years without self-injury.Sorry for caring on like this! I also enjoying gardening and esp. ''my flower area or where I have all kinds of plants.''
I enjoy all activities, esp.sports walking, yoga and being active with my Son and Dog(Buster) and 2 cats(Cal
August 21, 2008 5:37pm
I have a new life it seems!
There has been so much to do.
With working all day about 3 days a week and half days another 2 days.
I feel differant …
I started cutting at age 9.Then my parents became divorced w/yelling all the time. I turned to cutting burning ,finally after stabbing myself and almost dying,and after being inpatient on burn units 3x,I went into S.A.F.E.and TIMBERLAWN,BEST MOVE I EVER MADE!I'm also the underachiever of a overachieving family which doesn't help. I now have close to 4 yrs. w/o si.
I have to remain ever vigilant when it comes to controlled meds. I am given some meds. for pain ,though the doctor knows this is a potential problem for me.
4 YEARS AGO I had hospital/contracted MRSA come up after surgery ,my sister is a Physician and reassured me. But 4 months ago I had surgery for a broken toe and there it happened again ,after outpatient surgery not even a week went by and the toe had swollen so much that the stitches burst! My Doctor gave me only one choice ,to go inpatient at a nursing home this was after 2weeks in the hospital w/pic line in for Vanco. so I SPENT 8WKS. IN N.H./w I.V. VANCO ,IM FINALLY OUT!!
Iwas in a bad horse accident in which I had a bad head injury,was kept in the hospital for 3 months for in ,now I havee grand mals and petite mals,mostly in my sleep
I was diagnosed with acute Pancreatitis several years ago. I dont drink,so that wasnt the problem. All I new was that my stomach hurt, and up my back hurt too badly to eat more than one fat free yogurt a day. My weight went from 135lbs. to 106and I'M 5'10''. After the acute let up,I continue to have chronic Pancreatitis . They have theories on what's wrong! I had to stay in the hospital for 3 months,they didnt have a good prognoses for me. Only 2nd and 3rd degree burns are as painful.
