Journal

I'm a 18 year old student, and I have fibromyalgia, it has been gradually effecting my life and I feel like there is no way to control it. A lot of my friends don't understand that there is no pill or anything to help it and that their is really no cure. I am a lifeguard but that is changing I just cant do it the pain is too much. I'm tired of beening called a liar from people who don't understand, this includes my own family. i have had fybro since i was about 12 but have been diagnosed with fybomialgia for a year. and high blood pressure and i cant tell you how much i wish i could have known about this 6 and 7 years ago. I had to transfer school because of this condition the nurse at my school was trying to force me to go up the stairs to my class room but i couldn't make it and fell down the stairs, and she said that i was faking because i didn't want to go to class, It really hurt.... Not the fall but the thought that i would fake such something like that.... My father is in the navy, the last time i saw him was 6 years ago we (me my bro, sis, mom) where going to move down to vrigina to live with him he said that he was going down there to live on Base and save up the money to buy a house so we could all live together... months went by then years and we figured out that the only way we where going to get down there was to save up the money ourselves, then he cut the money that he was sending my mom every month so i had to start working and when i saved up the money to send us and all of our stuff down to Virgina we called and told him that we where going to come and he never answered his phone... emails, or mail that we sent him.... then we found out 4 weeks ago that he got divorced to my mom with out her knowing. So i got mad and i tried to serch him down i thought what the heck and i looked up his name on myspace and i found him... and his new wife.... so i added them both to my friends then i started to talk to her and when she found out who i was she freaked out.... that's how i found out about them and that my father divorced my mom in may and then got married in July on my moms birthday. I also am also anemic, have ADHD, Angizty, depression, and have asthma. Everything i used to do football, karate, basketball, waterpolo, swimteam, baceball everything seems to be affected by one thing or another and im sick of it.... I just dont understand what fibromyalgia is and why i cant fight it.... I live with my mom, brother, sister, grandpa and grandma who has altimers, its hard to live with her beacause of the stuff that she does and how she acts.... She pretty much rased me and now she acts like a child its like she isn't my grandma any more... Im looking for someone who can relate... I would just like someone to talk to someone who wont judge me... If im not on hit me up on myspace or e-mail me at sunciaray13@yahoo.com