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Sam55 
8:56pm
I posted last night something about being missed if I wasn't seen (should have read it before I decided to write this)... I was rambling. Being lonely cause here I spend another friggin holiday alone. A "friend" texted me yesterday and asked me what I was doing for the 4th. Told her eating hot dogs and watching movies with the dogs as Papa wouldn't be home. I never heard back from her. It was almost like she was saying "Oh crap, I shouldn't have said anything NOW she's going to expect us to invite her over". No, actually I wouldn't expect an invitation, nor would I go because I don't leave my dogs on the 4th of July because Cheyenne freaks over the fireworks. It would just be nice to be thought of, you know? These "friends" know how much time I spend alone. When I had my thyroid surgery four years ago, I couldn't drive or go anywhere because I couldn't turn my neck to see behind me...can barely turn my neck now because of pain, lol, but that doesn't stop me. But I'm mentioning this because Papa was able to take a week off from work, but after that he had to go because we can't afford no paycheck, and do you know that no one came by to see if I needed anything?
Before we moved here, I had a lot of friends. I worked too & I've never worked here. Most of the people I've met are people from church. Before we moved here, Jesus wasn't an active part of our lives; we'd never invited him into our hearts. But since moving here, we accept Christ as our Lord and Savior. Aren't Christians supposed to be different? I thought so, but honestly, I've been hurt worse by my Christian "friends" than I have by Secular people... I think I expected too much of those called Christians. That's why I have had to put my focus on Jesus because PEOPLE inevitably let you down, EVEN Christians.
Anyway, please don't mind me, I'm just rambling. I'm tired of being alone. But that's this week, I was flaring, but I feel better now; by next week, I'll be okay. These writings are not directed towards anyone here.
HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!
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oh sweetie, i so understand. my christian friends hid under rocks when i went through my divorce. i didn't understand it at all. and my own brother is a deacon in the church and has never done one thing to help me....oh the stories i could tell. but you know what; we can't look at those people;just keep our eyes on Jesus. we will all answer some day.
i'm sorry you are sad and lonely this weekend. sometimes i think i have gotten used to it. i have to fit into other people's lives or be by myself with the pups...which actually isn't so bad.
pm me if you want to chat! ((hugs)))
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