heartstring's Journal

grabbed me by my hair and threw me into a wall, grabbed me by my neck and lifted me up against a refrigerator, put his face millimeters from mine and yelled at the top of his lungs, shoved me into a wall and again put his face millimeters from mine and yelled at the top of his lungs, overturned furniture, body shoved me until i fell over a coffee table and smacked my back into the couch when i fell, smacked me across my face, called me nasty names, brought up all my past secrets and bad choices and even things that weren't my fault but hurt me and hurt me with them, said i was worthless, stupid, fat, ugly, threw me out of our motel room and would't let me take my daughter with me, shoved my head into the refrigerator repeatedly, orders me around like a servant, makes me feel guilty if i don't do something for him, says he's going to leave, then changes his mind and expects me to just forget the things he did and said to me and expects me to just go back to the way we were, talks over me when i try to talk,