BipolarEmperess's Journal

  You say I"m different.

You say I was better off off off.

But , you don't know how it feels like to be so sad , you couldn't get out of bed for a fecking WEEK. No lie. Or , try to commit suicide TWO times before your sweet sixteen. Or get , some happy you start acting crazy. In essence , you don't know how it is to be ME. With all my up and downs. Its like my life is a seesaw. And I'm the ride. Up , down.

 So up , I feel like flying. And , so down, I hit the ground. If I don't stop , I'll be six feet under.

Well,well.

So , you say that its a made-up disease. That I'm "attention-seeking."

  Well , this thing is very real to me , and my family. They deal with the effects that come with it too. When I get so angry , I can't stop screaming. Or sad , that I'm extra clingy. Or , too manic , that I startt acting rash and irrational , and I suddenly have no sense , of what's right for me , and normal for everybody.