I am 17, shallow and slightly odd. Hey , at least I'm honest. I have a pretty okay self-esteem. Cockiness is a No. But , a low dose of poor self-esteem gets me everytime. I consider it a twisted type of modesty. Lol.I worry a lot for my age. I even have a single gray hair for it. I blame it on family genes. But , no one takes me seriously.I am geniunely a kind person. It dosen't show with my sarcastic remarks. I am working on it. Just like I am working on my body. At this point in my life , I do not believe in myself. Nor believe or take faith in the people around me. I want to change that but do not know how. Anyone who has suggestions, just message me. Becca
I am 17, shallow and slightly odd. Hey , at least I'm honest. I have a pretty okay self-esteem. Cockiness is a No. But , a low dose of poor self-esteem gets me everytime. I consider it a twisted type of modesty. Lol.I worry a lot for my age. I even have a single gray hair for it. I blame it on family genes. But , no one takes me seriously.I am geniunely a kind person. It dosen't show with my sarcastic remarks. I am working on it. Just like I am working on my body. At this point in my life , I do
I love bargain shopping. Its a grandma (thats where I get it from!) habit and I don't care. I love free samples. And when I'm at Cosco , the ladies get mad at me because I take 2-3. I believe that friends are only there "for fun" and never to seriously tell them anything about myself(like darkest secrets wise). Gossip is stupid , but entertaining when its about me. I hate pushy people and instigators. Well , thats all. Becca
I love bargain shopping. Its a grandma (thats where I get it from!) habit and I don't care. I love free
December 23, 2008 3:25am
I can feel myself drowning in self-pity. Which turns into depression.Which it classified as a "down period"
Tips on how to get …
July 28, 2008 4:21am
Oh my god , my dad keeps calling me fat ass and everytime my mom looks at me she just gets this really grossed out look and says "why don't …
July 25, 2008 8:53am
I am so excited I got down to my idel weight but very frustrated the nightmare aren't going away. I'm afraid I'm cycling …
May 27, 2008 8:16pm
You say I"m different.
You say I was better off off off.
But , you don't know how it feels like to be so sad , you couldn't get out …
Nice goal i hope that you get what you want out of it. :)
Hi, just saying hello..no i said hi..sorry...have a good day.
Hey hows everything going> Hows life?
HEy Im really sorry I havent replied to any of your messages. Its nothing you did. Again Im really sorry. Im doing ok Im going up and down latley. Sometime i come on her and I dont tlak to anyone. or i come on and talk but I just i dont know. Things have been kinda crazy. Im getting so frustraited with everything and everyone. I hope we can talk soon. HUGS Lauren oh by the way how are you doing?
My ex friend was EXACTLY like that. And no, it's not weird to hate your friends. Heck, I hate the majority of the people I hang out with. I think the only two I kind of sort of like are my best friend and my gay bff who's not really gay. Eep. I'm not going to prom with him anymore! He and this other guy from my theatre plotted and he dumped me and the other guy came out wearing the costume I made for him with balloons that said "Madi" and "Prom?" I'm so excited! He's so cute! And he smells REALLY good. And what's even better - he KNOWS that I'm bipolar, and he's TOTALLY fine with it. We sat down to talk and he was like "so?" and I told him that I had to tell him things before we went because I didn't want him to be just freaked out by me if he found out later, and I told him, and he said that his mom is bipolar. Look at that! Someone who semi-understands. Oooh. I'm just giddy. [/end rant] sorry. Random XD
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It always seems right when school starts and through the winter , I'm in my "down" stages. My friend once told me that "Its not like your depressed. Because ,you would frown. You have absolutely no expression on your face. Its like your not there" And she was spot on , in that stage , I didn't feel like myself. I felt like I was drowning and help would never be on its way. I was hopeless. And then I seeked solace in Philosphers , such as Hegel and Aristole. They taught me so much about the world and human behaviour. It made me feel like this "bipolar" was just like any obstacle in life , I had to overcome it. And I hope by joining this support group , I have taken the right steps to recovery. To leaped into myself again
I'm 16 , confused , pretty , conceited , caring , honest and..bipolar. I wish I could change the fact that I'm bipolar BUT I can't. I kind of lost my respect for god , as AWFUL as it sounds , I did. Because , he couldn't take this..illness away. Now , I respect him more than anything in the world. Besides , my Grandma Carmen and counsler. It helped shape me into a better person , with more UPS AND DOWNS than anyone should have , lol.
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