Journal

Has it reallly been over a year since i first came on this web site WOW thats great so much has been going on in my life since than I may remarrie this wonderful guy name Derek he is do great to me and my girls i never thought i could ever find someone that treats me so well. things are going goos at my job its been a year here too and my ex is still an ass but its okay God dont like ugly so he's still getting what hes asking for LOL! not all have been good but by the end of the and your still standing you made it and you have become stronger its great when you feel so happy but sometimes feeling hurt and pain its all so bad because if it dont kill you it in powers you to become stronger. Lve life and love it.... tomorrows not promised to no one...

I've been runningn from my problems for a long time.  I've lied to myself, I've hated myself for what other has done to me. Its time to take control over my life and start living for me. there is only so much people see in me. they think that i am this good, loving, careing, smiling person but only if they knew how big my troubles and pain are. I've used man as a way to avoid my problems and I dont want to do that any more they only used me and made my problems wrost. Now I Live for me. putting God Frist. my first step is learning how to love myself.

will afther I thought My life was over I got a good job I met new people and I moved on with my life alot has happen since the last time I wrote a journal some bad but most good I feel better than I ever had in mo. And its all because of god I knew he haven't forgot about me.