imtimsmom's Journal

i am having a hard time  writting journals here.... its seems all i do is whinn..and i am trying to find positive things to think and write about...

Yes , things in my life are ....ummmm very bad ... but i have to figure a way not to dewell on it...

 or try to put a spin on it...soo i am not always dwelling in the stress....and to take some action .instead of just sitting there..frozen......with anxiety..  

Things are in the works for me to get a new, cardiologist, One that speicalizes in  arrhythmias,  i was told He would get me in....in the next day or two..They are going to call me today... to set it up..  this is a very postive thing.. i had been getting the run around ..here. so fianlly things are going into the right direction. Everyone has agreed that my last surgery, has not worked , .or that maybe new areas  are in my heart have devloped but none can say for certain..what is going on..but they also know..something needs to be done soon lol... since almost daily its getting worse .  Finally ( yesterday ) got one to restart me on medication that i used to be on.. before my surgery..  ( its very difficult for a Dr who dont know you or isnt going to be monitoring you....to start you on a arrhythmia medication...because Most  if not all arrhythimia medications..also have a side effect that can cause arrhythmia..) but since He said felt i was heading to this new Cardioglogist, soon  and i had been on this medication before i could start on it...Thanks God !!...

Hubby had one infection after another with his last surgery.  but the surgern stays on top of it..and been having him come to his office at least twice aweek.  And He is doing well in his Pysical therphy.. He is now able to walk pretty confinantly with his cane.. And only uses his walker ..if He knows his walk...is going to be a bite further.... He is gaining balace and he seems to have less fear of falling...

His Ejection Fraction in his heart is improving. And his carlogist has rated Him in the low normal range!!  this is wonderful.. 

 i recieved Tims ,GED , in the mail a couple of days ago... Both my hubby and i stood there and cryed...... as we opend it and looked at it..... we didnt have to say it..we both no we both have such mix feelings.... we love our son and this was a moment we actually were very proud of Him and the work he had done...

i would love to go back and see him before this winter....but ...its not looking like we are going to be able to.....Money is very tight..and since they moved him , to the western side of Upper Michigan.. it takes us a whole day to drive there....that is one night stay...a day to visit..(another night stay) and home again... .if we only see him once......its a three day trip..at least..And with both our health problems.....too be up in the middle of no where........

We runs this over and over , But both wanta see Him...at least once more before..winter..