AliCat09's Journal

   
And no one really reads this anyway so what does it matter. As for what's been going on since I last updated, I am having such a comfortable pregnancy it's amazing! That first trimester is really a hard one, but once ya get out of it it's smooth sailing. I've switched to a midwife, because I am so low risk, and really felt like my last OBs office was more of a baby factory than anything else. With my new midwife I really feel comfortable, safe, and less anxious about not getting the ideal natural birth I want. I don't understand women who go straight for the epi once contractions start. I've felt contractions (with miscarriages your cervix dialates, however not as much as when you carry to term), yeah they suck, but it's nothing worth drugging up my little girl over, and it certainly is nothing worth not being completely in the moment. I want to give birth like my great, great grandmothers did. In my home, with a midwife, free of episiotomy, free of pitocin, free of unnecessary medical intervention, and most definatly free of the routine unnecessary injections and sepparation of baby at birth. That's what birth was meant to be like. Despite my desire for a home birth, I've settled for a hospital one, accompanied by only my midwife and my fiance. Perhaps my grandmother. I have thought about a doula, and have decided not to, since my fiance is really such a sweetheart, and I'm confident he can support me through it all, not to mention the midwife attends the ENTIRE birth, rather than just being in and out like a doctor. I decided to go the hospital route to keep Casey's mother from being too nervous. She had very difficult birth experiences, one resulting in an emergency cesarian. I'm not worried about it at all, and am confident that my body knows what it's doing, and can get this lovely little girl out in to the world safely without the need of any kind of emergency intervention. I've been prepparing my body, exercising, eating nutritious yummy foods and keeping up with my pelvic tilts, keagles and perrineum massages. I still have to be careful, because I have been diagnosed as pre-diabetic, and though I love my sugary sweets so, Casey won't let us have any in the house anymore, so that Lilly won't grow too big for me to deliver. She is running a bit big for her gestational age, however, this is to be expected since Casey was a nine pound baby and I was 8 and a half. I've got the hips to do it though, and they're growing, too! I'm getting the stretch marks to prove it. None on the belly thank goodness, but definately in the hips :( . Oh well, I shall wear them as badges of honor from my passage in to motherhood!