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Good Morning Journal Buddy: It has been awhile but I had to take a break. This Thursday night our daughter finally goes for an MRI after waiting since mine ruptured in Jan. 2008. Finding a doctor that would order one was the hard part. She did not have a family doctor and clinic doctors did not want to get involved with all the paper work. She found one a few months ago and has had more tests in the past two months then in her whole life. Once she gets the MRI results then she will work on not smoking. She does not smoke a lot but still smokes. The method she will use to help her quit can increase blood pressure so she needs to know what is going on in her brain. We both had the same kind of head. Who calls who and asks what is your head doing, cloudy, overcast, the same questions. Our heads were like weather machines. Could tell it was going to rain before the weather person forecast it. My right shoulder and arm would ache, hers is the left. The only thing that worries me & Steve is that her headaches have always been more severe than mine. When she gets hers, she is sick to her stomach for a few days. Maybe this is because she has small kids at home and has to deal with them too whereas I can go to bed and sleep till I feel better. My brain doc says he will take her on if she has a problem but smoking has to be a thing of the past. She wants to quit and we know she will even if she does not have an aneurysm problem. Can not wait for the reslts to come back. I know what I have been through and I do not want this for her especially with children at home and only 35 yrs. old. The best thing is the fact that she is being tested and will find out before a serious problem can happen. Now, on the brighter side of the day. She will be calling me soon to go to the mall with 2 of her kids. My Kirsten and Dakota. Kirsten wants to get her ears pierced for her Birthday and Dakota wants to go to the show. Oh, to be a kid and have no worries. As I typed this I thought about kids that do have worries. Funny how the mind works after a major shake up in it. Well buddy, thanks for another day of listening. Things get better all the time. Almost forgot to tell you about a thing that happened. A few weeks ago I could not sleep. Woke up at 1am after a strange dream. My head had lights going on and off and strange feelings running through it. I was afraid to go to sleep in case I did not wake up in the morning. I looked over at Steve and he was proped up in bed. I asked him what was wrong and he said he was watching me because he was worried too. He put his arms around me and said sleep, I will watch out for you. I went to sleep and had another dream. This one told me my brain was getting nerve endings back in place and things would be okay. In the morning when I woke up, my face, inside of my mouth, and teeth were not as numb as they had been for the past 20 months. The only numb feeling is on the top lip on the right side of my mouth and cheek. Can not wait to find out if anyone else has experienced this . I have joined a group of brain injury people who meet once a week to discuss how things are going. This coming Thursday will be my first meeting. The founder of the group was out to our home Friday and talked with me about the group and what was going on with me. She says she makes an agenda but after a few minutes, they discuss what is on their minds and things work out okay. I will tell you more about this after next week. The people there are brain aneurysm, accident, tumour, stroke victims. We are all at different levels of recovery and damage done by our problem, but all willing to help and get better. It is a good thing for me because now I will have someone to talk to about what is going on. It is at the hospital where I had my rehab after rupture only 10 minutes away. Time to stop and I will let you know about the group and how our daughters test goes next week. Thanks to Mr. Bubbles too. He told me to get involved with a group. Saturday, Oct. 17 2009 My not smoking says were and I do not smoke, I will have to watch it and see if it changes. I should be you are
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Dear Journal Buddy; Last night I talked to our friend Cathy in Florida. The woman, Betty who was running the RV park with her husband John passed away. She got sick just after we got there last winter. John went back to Pennsylvania to bury Betty but never returned to Florida. Cathy says the site we stayed on last winter is under 2 feet of water. The 90 year old woman who stays across the street was flooded out. We are going to call there today to make our reservations for this winter. Cathy is so excited we are coming back and I am too. We enjoy her and Dennis and her sister Helen and her hubby Mr. Bill. Helen had a health problem this past summer but hopefully it is fixed and she will be okay. She was tired all the time and went to see the doctor. She ended up having a shunt put in for her heart. At first it was not helping but found out it was the meds she was taking. Now things are better and we will see her again this winter. Dennis is in Pennsylvania too. He had to go back home because his legs were giving him problems. He is 68 years old. Steve, Howard and Dennis go to Daytona for the car race together when we are in Florida.Staying at this Rv park keeps things the same. We know the area, people, shopping and dining. Steve feels good about pulling the 5th wheel because he knows the roads too and where to go.
Everything seems to have changed since my brain blew. Steve got rid of my car, my place of employment moved, Steve retired, my brother passed away,my older brother is thinking of coming out of retirement, businesses we used to go to are no more. Can not do things as I used to. Is it just the way things are with time or am I missing something? Hopefully, I will make sense of all this next year. Time heals and I still need time. I try to tell myself to really think about what I would be doing if I had not had a ruptured annie and most of the time I am doing exactly that. When we get our age, we are not running around doing all kinds of things. Most of us have retired and settled down to a slower pace. I have never been one to do nothing, just sit around in the sun or watch TV. I had to be busy all the time. Again, one day as time goes bye. Well buddy, the pool guys are coming to close it so I have to go. Need to vacumn it out and get things out for them. Thanks again , later. Sept. 14 09.
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Dear Carol,
For me it seems as if time stood still when my annie blew but unfortunately it doesn't so that when we are again conscious of time it is like we are Rip Van Wrinkle and slept time away. This is normal. Eric
Good Morning Journal Buddy: We took our grandson Dakota age 4 & his sister Kirsten age 9 camping for the weekend at Yogi Bear. Kirsten is the one that spends the summer with us. Friday night it rained most of the time. Had to stay in the trailer. My niece & her husband had told us about going camping this weekend but did not tell us they were not staying there. They went home Friday night and her son & his family stayed in their trailer. Friends of theirs came out to stay with them. This is my great nephew & his kids, great great. Now, no adults to sit & chat with. Saturday, grandson was a brat to put it mild. Fought about everything and told us he would do what he wanted when he wanted. By 1 pm it was time to dress up like pirates and go for a basket ride with Yogi Bear. Dakota did not want to dress up now. For 2 weeks that was all he talked about and now it is time and he says no. Well, grandma says yes and dressed up he will be. The kids did this and costumes would be judged and results made known at the dance at 8 pm that night. Dakota went to the park with me to play in a blow up castle. After standing in line for an hour he deciced he did not want to play in the castle. Back to the trailer. We had company at the trailer already. I had been away with him and did not get to visit with them. Our sons came with their wife & kids and the kids went to play. Again, Dakota pulled his I'll do what I want routine and things got bad. One of the older grandsons had brought 2 air guns with him. Dakota took one and was shooting at people & cars going by. After a few people commented on it & I told him to stop it, he pointed the gun at me and said, I'll shoot & kill you. I have never heard him talk like this or act up like he was and I did not know how to deal with it. First reaction, slap his butt. It was not hard but surprised him. I told him if he did that again with the gun or talked to me like that again I would call his dad to come and get him and take him home. Oh yah, he says like my dad is going to drive out here to get me. So, I'll call your Mom. Again the same reply. Grandpa heard him and said , I will not call anybody. I will drive you home. He changed his tune then. Things got better for a while and I could sit and chat with our daughtes-in-law. Our youngest grand daughter Leah, wanted to go to the park & play so we did that. She sat on a swing & had me push her and then her monkey toy she had put in a baby swing. This was so nice and enjoyable. At the dance the winners were announced and Dakota got second place. He got a medal with Yogi Bear on it and a certificate. Dakota used to be like Leah when we went to the park. I took care of him for about 1 year and we always had fun and he was never bad or needed to be told to behave. Adults would stop by & wondered why we were watching cartoons and then he would stand up and say hi folks. We could take him anywhere. Such a change in him since he went into day care. This September he starts nursery school half day and the school has a day care for the other half day. If he behaves, the school will keep him all day or if he acts out, he will be taken to the day care he is in now for the other half day. It is right across the street to the school. Sure hope school helps him. Our daughter is so upset with his acting out. She has 3 children and only he is like this. After we got home, they were watching TV and he took a skiping rope with plastic handles and started hitting his sister. She asked him to stop because it hurt but he hit her more. I got to him before grandpa did. Lucky for him but I wished I had known grandpa was on his way to deal with him. That might have been a better thing to have happen. I slapped his butt again only 2x and he told me he wanted his mom. I said me too and she was on her way. He could go home with her and stay there. We were not taking him next weekend. I think his sister was happy. It gives her some time with cousins and no little brother. This really bothers me because I miss the child he was. So many changes to deal with since this annie rupture. We were going to take him next weekend campimg too but not now. Maybe he will learn something when he knows he is not going because of the way he acts. We are going to my nieces house which is about an hour away and it was she who was camping this weekend for the day. They have a lot of property and the family can come and camp or go home & return the next day. Most of them are only 10 - 15 min. away. Her husband has a zip cord thingy set up for the kids to play on. I think that is what they call it. You walk up a spiral staircase about 15 ft. off the ground and it is a slide too and then hang onto this cord on a wheel and ride it to the end which is another 30 ft. or so. By the time you reach the end your feet are on the ground. They have a pond with Canadian geese , ducks and swans. A swimming pool and adult toys inside. Pool table and card tables. I hope Dakota remembers all this because we took him there before and knows what he is missing because of his acting up. When his mom was talking to him about his acting out, he stood there and messed in his pants. Something he has not done for almost a year now. She got so upset and started crying. This made us feel worse and wondered if we should have told her what he was like on the weekend. Decided it was best she knew and maybe they could do something to help him. Take things away from him or something. Oh well, weekend is over, he is home and Kirsten is coming back here tonight. Next weekend should be enjoyable and I do not have to worry about a child. This time I can sit and enjoy the company. We tried but it did not work. We leave for Florida in 4 months and we wanted to spend time with the grandkids but he has made it impossible to spend time with him. I love this little guy so much and just miss him. Could hold him, cuttlle and kiss him before and now nothing. Did the annie do something to me or is it him? Only time will tell. Thanks for listening journal buddy. It sure helps to see matters in print and read them over . Monday,August 31. Today is Lukes 11th BD. We had a cake & ice cream for him on the weekend when they visited us.
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Sounds like a very pleasant QUIET weekend. lollollol Eric
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Dear Beautiful Calgone Carol,
Wow, your the only person that I know that uses a brain annie to get her lucky hubby to snuggle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lollollol
Hope you have a "clear head" day. Great news about your daughter, I pray her MRI is nice and clear!!!! Eric
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