juliec3's Journal

Still frustrated at LACK of communication, contact, compassion from people I know.  (I took this 'test': sent email to former closest friends about relocating back out West before winter, to see who would respond and what they would say?  Only one did, and he said he and his 'husband' couldn't house anybody at the moment.  I didn't even bring that up!)

Do they not realize how depressing it is to live with 70-somethings who hardly even talk to anybody?  I'm so tired of this 'situation' (plus the darn lack of sun!  My poor brain is struggling).

Only thing that is 'new' is that I started going down to Pittsburgh FibroAndFatigue clinic once a week for some kind of shot and IV to kill off old MONO virus gone wild (yeah, I FINALLY found out what the ACTUAL problem is)!  Also have lots of supplements to take, some new meds (including thyroid and adrenal 'boosters')...ugh.  My poor stomach is not having fun.  This new protocol, which I'll try for 6 weeks, is supposed to make me feel much worse before it does better; JUST what I'm looking forward to (NOT)!

And, of course, I have to travel/stay overnight (could push to do it all in one day, but I don't want to risk another car accident) ALL BY MYSELF.

WHY can I not even get a real hug?  Life is supposed to be some sort of 'journey'; well, I don't want this one anymore.  IT SUCKS.