ironicgirl's Journal

They say its all a matter of time, that these wounds that pierce so deeply in my soul will heal. I find no resolve as I sit and over analyze and over think half broken pieces of my dreams and my past. She says it doesn't matter if I don't know what I'm feeling, but I think how can I address the feeling if I do not know what it is? Sometimes it seems we take so much time finding what's wrong with us, that we forget about the pieces of ourselves that are still somewhat whole. No one can fix you, they can help you in the right direction and become methodical in the way they approach you, but they cannot heal you. True healing comes with acceptance and patience with yourself. Maybe thats what she means when she says sit with the feeling. I've erased the hotline from kaiser, and any memory of it, to provide me with some independence and actual reality of how to manage the unbearable feelings on my own.

I'm planning to going back to school next semester, busy myself with school so the silence doesn't become overbearing.