koolman's Journal

...from 20 years ago and we had a lot of laughs and great time.  I enjoyed being close to her.  She kicked her dead-beat boyfriend (my former friend) out to the curb for the umpteenth time and he went to live with his mother for the umpteenth time until they get sick of each other, and then he'll return to her.  I'm actually thinking of moving in on this woman, because she helps me get and stay in touch with my inner child, as she is still in touch with hers, her "fairy princess" who wants her prince to come in and rescue her (from her own loneliness).  My inner child is a scared little boy who channeled his fear and insecurity into aggressive, imaginative, creative pursuits like storytelling. 

Could it work?  Maybe...part of me loves this woman...maybe I'll be her temporary lover until the ex worms his way back into her heart, which would work great for me...I don't really want to commit to anybody right now anyway, even though I do have feelings for her (I have feelings for ALL women though...don't think I'm a one-woman man).  The scared little boy in me is scared of waking up alone some morning with a scorching case of herpes...so I NEED to commit to SOMEBODY...!

I'm seriously considering this...she's very pretty...has a bit of a controlling, mothering side, but it comes from a place of love and a need to be a caregiver...and this is a good thing.  Could also come from a place of insecurity (her parents divorced when she was young).  Gotta ask her how she feels about this.  She tends to want it all (full-time, lifelong commitment) or nothing, but maybe it doesn't work that way...!