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normaa 
Hi, saturday was not as hard as i thought it was going to be. i took you flowers and released balloons for you to see. i cried but not as much. Afterward i reall y felt good about it. I guess deep down i know that you was there by side me at the grave and i know that you were cheering me on to be happy and not sad. So the day went well. As you know I still miss so much everyday i still think of you alot and mostly at the end of the day. i can't help to still think how unfair and angry i am that you are gone. some days are good but mostly they are bad. And on my bad days i so wish i was with you up in heaven. I just want my old life with you back. I know you would want me to move forward and not dwell on this any longer but its so hard to do when the past 10years we spent almost every hours together. I just dont understand why you had to go. My heart aches everyday no matter how i am wether sad ot happy. But i guess only time will tell i just take it one day at a time. Love you and miss you, Norma
