lostlizz's Journal

UMMMM... I guess I should start by stating that this feels kind of wierd not used to having a public journal. But what the hay here it goes.  Lately I've been feeling misreble  can't find the strength or will to get anything done not even my biggest responsibilities.  I'm so lost and confused , I hate my Life and frankly i feel like the only reason worth living is so my son wont lose his mommy.  I can't stand my babies dad all I want to do is get rid of him. he dosen't understand he is so hard on me he thinks my depression is all on in my head and i can control it. he  complains that i gained weight and that i dont cater to him like i used to. But i cant help but feel that i would be better off alone.  But thats the least of it . All i want is to feel better.  I don't want to be misrable  anymore.