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lostlizz 
3:50pm, June 28, 2009
Well I'm me again I finally found the woman I was, I came to terms with my fiances affair, we even set a date so I'm wedding planning I went back to school, I lost some weight (only about 7 lbs) and I am just in a good place, oh and did I mention Im off my meds! all this in a few months God Is great. I stopped visiting the infidelity group cus it would just rehash all those horrible feelings I had against him. His nephew is back with his mom. I really hadnt realized how great I feel until I read my old journals LOL wut was I thinking I was misreble, well I still get depressed but its not as devastating.
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Take son for daily walks
Progress 70%
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well umm im doing okay, not really happygolucky but im hanging in there ive been trying to work out and i have gotten over (thankgod) my mans cheating and were gettin married in april . everything seems to be okay but i still feel empty and alone but i try to ignore it and then my nephew is getting placed back with his mom, i get worried sick over him being okay. hehas gone for a weekemd to visit her and he comes back so sick , i remember when she used to have him wearing shorts and sandals at 47 degree weather, and all he would eat is a cheeseburger and choclate milk all day and moms boyfriends used tell him they wanted to kill him. all these things i know about bcuz i heard it from him and now they think its ok to give a heartless bitch a helpless child. i hate the system sometimes. but my health isnt great and i cant adopt him i just wish that this lady would give him to his grandma, she really wants him and is a good person. but thats how life is .
Hmm.... Well im in deep F'n hole damn i would do and give anything to get out . Was feeling great for like a week last month and i f'n lost it i mean i was cooking cleaning and even going for walks.It hurts so bad to feel better and losing it Iv been rackin my brain 2 think what the hell made me feel so good?I just want 2 be a good mom and daughter and i try so hard But constantly fall short Why is it so hard 4 me why? I haven't been fighting w/SO just wish i could find happiness no ill settle 4 contentment
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