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About Me
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About Me
I am recovering from a lengthy illness where I was an invalid for a # of years. While walking I always thank God that I can. I am most challenged by the effect this has on me socially. My anger is strong at times and volatile but I've made huge strides through the help of this website, medication, and my psychotherapist. I find I am able to "let things go". I have hope in Christ and the future. I have bad days but the good days are more often. I have GI trouble and neurological troubles related to PTSD. I am studying as of new botany so I can hopefully return to work in a florist shop. I am happily with Tom and baby Lab Clarke. I worked as a cook/baker/manager for 13yrs and did a few other jobs or a bunch other jobs. I love my friendships here.
I am recovering from a lengthy illness where I was an invalid for a # of years. While walking I always thank God that I can. I am most challenged by the effect this has on me socially. My anger is strong at times and volatile but I've made huge strides through the help of this website, medication, and my psychotherapist. I find I am able to "let things go". I have hope in Christ and the future. I have bad days but the good days are more often. I have GI trouble and neurological troubles related to
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Interests
Now that I have some pain management I am interested in life. Into floral designing and hope to make a career out of it soon. Gardening, learning patience again, developing my relationship with Tom and learning about life through my pups eyes. I do art and write. I cook now at home mucho. I pray
Now that I have some pain management I am interested in life. Into floral designing and hope to make
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"The only things in your control are your thoughts and then your actions. Positive, powerful thoughts lead to positive, powerful actions, and when done with repeated consistency this cycle leads to greatness. Dream it! Pray for it! Believe it! Work for it! and then be ready when it happens!" ~ Greg Werner
Get Well Soon!
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Celebration
Happy baking friday!!! :) good morning Jennay, Tom, Clarke, and family! :) super big happy friendship hugs! :) We hope you all enjoyed going out for lunch. :) we're thinking of you all. :) We're so very thankful for your wonderful friendships. :) Jennay, you're so very nice, and sweet. :) Thank you for mailing a treasure to Kayla. :) She'll be so happy and excited. :) You have a beautiful heart, spirit, and soul. :) my family and i thank you so very much, for your lovely comments, warm well wishes, hugs, and amazing support. :) lots of great things to look forward too. :) Kayla and i are so very happy and excited about baking goodies. :) We'll be with eachother in spirit in our kitchens. :) We hope you have lots of fun baking goodies, and shopping. :) any Thanksgiving plans? :) It's such a wonderfully wholesome time of the year. :) 6 more days until Thanksgiving. :) GOBBLE GOBBLE! :) the beautiful Thanksgiving card you all sent us, will be with us in the kitchen today, and also will be on our Thanksgiving table. :) Kayla's not feeling 100%, she's gonna stay home from school today, to rest. god bless her heart. She's in really good spirits. :) i gonna decorate our kitchen around mid-morning. :) Thank you again Jennay, for everything. :)Hi Clarke! :) Bailey and Tucker say hi, ruff ruff! :) You're their best friend! :) awww! :) Jennay, we hope you all enjoy a lovely day. :) We send our love, warm friendship wishes, caring thoughts, many blessings, and lots of super big happy friendship hugs, and happy baking friday smiles, from CT. :)
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Little Love
Hi Jennay! :) Awww! :) Thank you so very much, for your lovely well wishes for Kayla. :) We deeply appreciate everything, with all of our hearts. :) We're so very happy and delighted, that you, Tom, and grandma Jo are going out to enjoy a nice lunch. :) it's always nice spending quality time together. :) Hi Tom, Clarke, and grandma Jo! :) Bailey and Tucker say hi to Clarke. :) ruff ruff! :) hi there! :) Thanksgiving coming soon! :) Jennay, we hope you, Tom and grandma Jo enjoy a nice lunch. :) that's great, that Tom is going to treat himself to some new shoes. :) it's always nice treating ourselves. :) It amazes us, how the holiday season is approaching. :) "Black Friday" shopping is coming up soon. :) my mom's been gearing up for the holidays, buying some supplies for Thanksgiving, and Christmas. :) We're looking forward to celebrating the holidays with everyone. :) it's wonderful Jennay, hearing you are in good spirits. :) That's very nice, that you are going to bake a cherry pie this friday. :) baking friday! :) we love it! :) lots of great things to look forward too. :) You all are in our thoughts and prayers, and close within our hearts, every day. :) We love hearing from you all. :) my mom and i went to the post office today. :) it was a great experience. :) i had lots of social interaction. :) Thanksgiving smiles! :) we look forward to Thanksgiving. :) 8 more days. :) Thank you Jennay, for all of your wonderful comments, and for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers. :) We send our love, warm friendship wishes, caring thoughts, many blessings, and lots of super big happy friendship hugs, and happy november smiles, from CT. :) Take care, enjoy a wonderful day. :) god bless you all, always. :)
"As Thanksgiving Day approaches,
Our blessings we recall;
The things we are most thankful for,
We recollect them all.
You are really special,
In all you say and do.
You’ve made a difference in our lives;
We’re thankful now for you." :) -
Celebration
GOBBLE GOBBLE! :) 8 days until Thanksgiving! :) good morning Jennay, Tom, Clarke, grandma Jo, and family! :) we hope you all are well, and enjoying a nice day. :) it's mid-week already! :) We're gearing up for baking friday, and Thanksgiving. :) are you baking goodies this week? :) Kayla and i are going to bake a turkey themed cake, and gonna make some chocolate walnut fudge. :) thank you so very much Jennay, for all of your lovely comments. :) i'm so very happy and delighted you enjoyed viewing my pictures :) We all say hi. :) we send our love, warm friendship wishes, caring thoughts, many blessings, and lots of super big happy friendship hugs, from CT. :) Take care, enjoy a great day! :) sunflower hope and unfailing faith! :) ps, mum wrote us, her dad is recovering, and is having some good days. :)
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Support Groups
Close Anger Management
Bad times growing up, during the 20's had mucho bad luck and made some bad choices. I have no regrets because everything I do has been to survive independently. I became chronically ill a few years ago. Things suddenly are improving this year. I am trying to reconnect with my real dad and mother. Most of my grandparents and great-grands raised me and have moved on. I am calmness in progress. My anger makes me sad. I've been mostly isolated past 4yr
Treatments
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- Now I sleep. It doesn't help my depression but it helps my shaking/jerking. Lexapro helped with depression but didn't like side effects. Tried a few neurological fancies
Close Crohn's Disease & Ulcerative Colitis
explosive ... get it? I have good years and then get an attack usually lasts a few weeks. Since childhood but not treated until a few years back after colonoscopy.
Open Shingles
Began thanks to my ex-husband I believe around age 19 on leg. Nerves are dead there now. Outbreaks about once a month. Now it has moved higher up. This is fresh meat so it is awful painful.
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Open GERD & Heartburn
trouble eating my whole life. I get like a suction hick-up loud and painful. GERD and at times trouble swallowing. I have a hiatal hernia.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- discovered I have food allergies. So that has really helped
- Prilosec Somewhat Helpful
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Angry, mean step-fathers. #1 was I can't talk about. #2 was mental (telling me I'm stupid trying to scare me etc). Eventually he tried to shoot me in the head but missed I ran. As an adult some men have tried but realized my rage was bigger than theirs and I would could snap'em like a twig or crush their scull. Anger makes you quite strong. Tired of the bulling.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- works
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Violence and anger all around growing up. Moved from house to house in childhood. In 20's lived around a lot of gang activity, gun-fire, harrassment etc. Step-father tried to kill me, so fear of throat being slit, shot, or drowning
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I put it on canvas and then throw it away. I guess I'm trying to throw away my past.
- EMDR Not Working
- made nightmares worse
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- Helps sleep and neurological issues
- Crying Working / Worked
- works
Open Panic Attacks
Reaction to growing up and contant bad experiences through out. Fire, divorce, abuse, betrayal, rape, fear PTSD
Treatments
- EMDR Not Working
- made worse
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- calming distracting, however, with my clonazepam and hydrocodone I haven't needed to.
Open Insomnia
I have had sleep difficulties since childhood. Most recently the worst in the past few months. It is beganing to effect my whole life. Trying to figure how to manage. I've tried many things. This most recently sparked after a hospital flyby.
Treatments
- Clonazepam Somewhat Helpful
- Risperdal Working / Worked
Open Schizophrenia
Hello, I am 37 and live in Denver and just went back to work last year after a chronic physical illness which made my mental illness worse. Recently my home life has is totally deteriorating with husband. He says I am mentally ill and can't handle our daily life anymore. He is willing to try counseling. I never think about how awful I must be to live with and am confused about myself completely now. I try so hard to be hopeful, positive, and faithful in spirit. I attempted suicide 3yrs ago.
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