shaz5980's Journal

I am so tired physically, emotionally and mentally I did not think it possible to be this tired. I have been away from home for 4 weeks and boy it is no good.

First the good news I have a wonderful new grandson, Kayden and he is cute. He was a c section so no funny head etc.

I have finally got news that all the statements are finished which means my SA will be charged this week or next. The sooner the better, mind you if it happened on September 24 thats cool as it is his birthday and it is 1 birthaday present I would be happy to give him.

I received a letter from a friend at the market I do and didnt read it. It fell out of a bag I had just changed from and my husband found it. That was fine for him to read it but the idiot calls me his queen and sounds like he wants me for himself. I am not leaving my hubby and have not done anything to encourage him. It was so hard reading it for me so god knows how hard it was for my hubby. He has been sitting at home for 2 weeks really wondering what the hell is going on. I dont blame him as I would do the same if the situation was reversed. I am going to seek couselling on how to deal with this.

I am so fed up with anything and everything, I am too old (lol) to put up with the crap my kids give me and I certainly not able to keep up with all my grandies any more.

So now that part of the waiting is over I wonder how long it will be before I have to go to court. There is so much more I will need to write to sort out my head that it is going to have to take a few days to do so. I have been away so long that I was concerned that some of my DS friends may have forgotten me but know now that they havent. Must get more sleep.