Journal

It has been ages since I have had time to write in my journal. I have just come out of hospital with the doctor not telling me all that was going on and I hate it. Yes I know their are people who cope better knowing as little as they need. I on the other hand fit into the group that if I know what I am dealing with I check it out and find it easier to cope. The x-rays said possible cancer and the ct next day mentioned different lung diseases. All the doc would say was pnumonia and that was not even mentioned in the report. One of the nurses walked into my room and let me know that she had even had to look up MAC disease yes this was in the report. I am going for a second opinion this time. I know that most of my friends who are aware of how bad my local doctor is (including swearing at his patients, yelling at them and even looking at the desk to talk to them not at their face) and you have said to change doctors. The biggest problem with changing doctors is that I live in the country and he is the only one in our town, he is the hospital doctor and has refused to treat patients unless it is life threatening. he will get them well enough to send them to their own doctor. When I have my gransons visiting and I have to take them to him he says they are not my patients, I then inform him they were until they moved from out of town. Our town is now starting to rely on tourism for income what is he going to do with them?????

After all this bloody waiting for all the statements to be in so that my SA trial could begin my prosecutor is away and even though there is another doing his job they have not charged the bastard. We could have a trial date by now if the other prosecutor got of his arse and charged him and got his plea of guilty or not guilty. Damn it I reported this in 2003 and that average time from report to trial is 18 months. It is getting beyond a joke. With the scare of possibly having cancer in the last few weeks has made me even more angry than usual at this slow progress, I even got to wondering if I was goin to die before it gets to court.