pytabc123's Journal

nothing special going on. My mom is coming out in December. She has not been out since lance was born over 5 years ago. I'm surprised she's coming because she is a large woman nd flying can not be comfortable. But it will be fun. We'll probably sit around playing songs on the piano. I'm sure the kids will keep us entertained.

I dont know what's going with my marital status. I'm just laying low right now. I can only give so much despite the wrong I've done. I cant do it on my own. and evan just wont give me any clue as to what he wants. He still tries to hurt me by throwing shit in my face. I bite my tounge and try not to go there with him but its so natural for him. I dont handle it very well to say the least.

I'm loosing a little bit of weight which is good I guess. I stand in not at 163 pounds. For a 6ft woman thats ok. I dont know where I want to be as far as that is concerned. I would idealy like to be around 155 and maintain it but I dont know if I can without retracting back to bad habbits. I think if I can stay stress free or at least keep the stress low It's do-able... oh well...blah blah blah