Journal

Well.. i have not been writing for while. Things are going ok. The divorce was final back in Jan 2009 and as far as that in concerned we (my X and I) are keeping things pretty civil. We have out moments but God he makes some inappropriate comments. Anyway...

I am takinga break from school. 3 years non stop was begining to take a toll on me and I dont think I could keep up my grades once the kids are with me in the summer. But i will finish.

So i have been seeing someone as well. T is the best. We have a good time together and there are things about me that I just was not able to express fully when I was with Evan. Little things but those little things count for something. We've been seeing eachother since about Jan and i was not really sure what to expect out of our relationship. I love him alot and thank God he is and will always be my friend first. Everything else is just a a perk. We have a good time.

Kids are doing good. School is almost out and I have a feeling this summer is going to be a scortcher!!! I just look forward to the next day. I'm tired of living in a slump and I know I can control my happiness (for the most part). I love my kids, i love my job, i love my baby (T)... Just gotta keep the momentum going....

nothing special going on. My mom is coming out in December. She has not been out since lance was born over 5 years ago. I'm surprised she's coming because she is a large woman nd flying can not be comfortable. But it will be fun. We'll probably sit around playing songs on the piano. I'm sure the kids will keep us entertained.

I dont know what's going with my marital status. I'm just laying low right now. I can only give so much despite the wrong I've done. I cant do it on my own. and evan just wont give me any clue as to what he wants. He still tries to hurt me by throwing shit in my face. I bite my tounge and try not to go there with him but its so natural for him. I dont handle it very well to say the least.

I'm loosing a little bit of weight which is good I guess. I stand in not at 163 pounds. For a 6ft woman thats ok. I dont know where I want to be as far as that is concerned. I would idealy like to be around 155 and maintain it but I dont know if I can without retracting back to bad habbits. I think if I can stay stress free or at least keep the stress low It's do-able... oh well...blah blah blah