khodem's Journal

Some things just hit me wrong-the mixed messages like he can be sweet as can be... Then something like dinner last night-I asked him if he wanted some artichokes and he barked " no, don't ever ask me that again"- it was the tone of voice that bothered me. But then when he prayed at the table he Thanking God for the food and the time we where able to spend together.... and I was connected enough to go up to the altar to pray with him.
Went to the ladies CR step study tonight-What stuck-Forgiveness is setting the prisoner free And realizing the prisoner is you. CR helps me bring up the things I need to look at a little at a  time-process my thoughts. One question was what new healthy relationships have you developed since you have been in recovery. Time eating dinner regularly with the children. Then the relationship with Jay is both healthy and not so healthy. I know that you can rise him up without rising your voice. I like what Carolyn Kenmore said "If you can learn from hard knocks you can also learn from soft touches" and Mary Carpenter "We have two lives-the one we are give and the one we make.