Journal Entry for January 9, 2009
January 9, 2009 12:28pm
damn its been forever since ive been on this site.i really missed it...damn life is hard and im barely learning how to take it one day at a time.i …
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tigerz10
2:39pm, November 6, 2008
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About Me
tigerz10
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About Me
this is my 2nd profile.i forgot my password to the other one.which sucks cuz i had alot of wonderful friends.hopefully i find'em all.so in my opinion im a whole different person.alot has changed in my life, but for the better.ive experienced alot of sad breakups.the saddest part is ive always been the one that gets hurt.alot of ppl say its my personality.i trust to easily, im over the top nice, and i dont get mad easy.guys find it as a perfect opportunity to cheat on me.thats like the only reason why im single.i rather live my life with my freinds happy then to have a guy treat me like his doorstep.i gotta admit there are some moments where i do feel lonley and i just want to be in sum1'z arms but whatever im young and i have my whole life ahead of me.I'm a very nice person.Almost to nice to trust anyone.After all the horrible things that have happend to me i still have the tendency to trust strangers.I have my moments were i can be really quiet, but other times im very hyper and talkative.I'm 18 years old and just learning whats out on the real world.It's nothing like all those "cheesy" reality shows.I also have a big heart.i like to get to know ppl and care for them with all the luv in my heart ;)so ya know im here if anyone needs me, just hit me ^;) just recently i got recomended to be an "aggie cheerleader".that is like a dream come true.ive worked so hard for this.lesson learned 101:hard work pays off!!!1 im currently taken, by my love Bol, he's freekin wonderful. 1 last thing im a very honest person.most times that can be a good thing but other tymes i just dont keep my mouth shut.thats a lesson im yet to learn...if you want to know more about me just hit me ^ i love meeting new ppl :)
this is my 2nd profile.i forgot my password to the other one.which sucks cuz i had alot of wonderful friends.hopefully i find'em all.so in my opinion im a whole different person.alot has changed in my life, but for the better.ive experienced alot of sad breakups.the saddest part is ive always been the one that gets hurt.alot of ppl say its my personality.i trust to easily, im over the top nice, and i dont get mad easy.guys find it as a perfect opportunity to cheat on me.thats like the only reason
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Interests
Gotta say that they would include, shopping working(wow right i love my job!!!)my family is like the most important thing to me;) and last but not least my boyfriend.it seems like time goes by fast when were together.i guess cuz spending time with him is like so much more important than worrying bout anything else!!!!
Gotta say that they would include, shopping working(wow right i love my job!!!)my family is like the
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Journal Entry for October 7, 2008
October 7, 2008 12:30pm
I dedicate this song to my 1 and only I love you baby!!!!!
(chorus)Your the only oneYou make my life completeIf i was ever to lose …
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awww I feel like that sometimes aswell but you can't keep wishing for something bad to happen x
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hey hun...yeah we haven't spoken in timeeee lol...I've been alright, what about you? xxx
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yeah everything is goin pretty good, how are you doin ?
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hey there.. just saying hi hope your doing well :)
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sunday hugs
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Close Sexual Abuse
I left school one day with a friend.We came up to 7 guys in a car.she lied to me and said she knew him.They were all drinking,I took a couple sips of their drinks and about 30 minutes later i passed out.There was a date-rate drug in that drink.They held my friend down as she watch 2 guys rape me.until this day i'll never 4get that.It effected my life horribly.i randomly get memories of it often.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- i love music t thats my passion,but listeniong to it just takes my mind off of it for a while then the thoughts come back
- Talking Working / Worked
- just recently i attended an intense 8 week course that stopped the thoughts from like randomly entering my head.i can actually go through a day without crying about it.
Close Bereavement - Teens
Loosing sum1 close isn't easy at all.On Oct.29th i loss my dear friend victoria,on december 14th i loss my close uncle sabas,on febuary 16th I lost my love rico saldana(he was like my brother i lv him)last friday i lossed another dear friend named tiffani,and just this past weekend on sept.28th i lost another friend Chris.I was close to them in many different ways.
Treatments
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- i love my 3 dogs.its like they know when im hurting and they just tend to do something funny to just like crack me up,but soon later the thoughts come back
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- Talking it out helps me relieve some pain i have left behind when thinkingand realizing that they're no longer here.
Open Codependency
well see i was with this guy for 3 1/2 years.i loved him with all my heart.towards the last 6 months of our realationship we were breaking up a couple times a week,and getting back together cuz we thought we couldnt live without each other.he's the only guy ive ever "been with"and its like now all he wants me for is a booty call.he says he loves me and it seems like i have no other choice but to believe him.AHH HELP!!!!i dont know what to do!!!!
Treatments
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- i have 3 dogs and i love my little babyz to death.i take them out for walks and all but then when i get back all the thougths come back :(
Open Eating Disorders
the way i eat is really weird.i honestly probly eat like once maybe twice a week.i dont really have an appetite.and now that im taking my aderall it makes it even worst.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Not Working
- they tell me to eat healthy by eating 3 times a day.thats impossible when i cant even manage to eat once everyday.
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
I was introduced to marijuana when i was 9 yrs old.when i was 13 i was put on probation and was in and out of detention centers for dirty u/a's.just recently i stopped in march but started again in august.ive tried to stop but cant.there's something in me that feels like i dont neccesarily have to yet im a whole different person when im not on it.its sad i hate to say that im depended of it but i am.
