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November 17, 2009 8:20am
and my head is spinning. re reading old journals, my original complaint letter, trying to focus my points and my message. i just get so …
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sorry you missed your exam... that sucks monkey balls...
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hey hun - i know you're way stressed at the moment. Thinking of you *hugs* xxoo
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Hi hon, had to come online tonight to mail my therapist, I feel like a 5th weel in the family, they don't care and I feel stupid for feeling anything at all about this, I am a mess at the mo, wedding just done, my sister didn't even acknowledge us at the wedding, nothing, no sincere anything, i shouldn't have come. whatever as I said my tears are in vain, i might as well save the fuckers. I feel drained. just got a wee bit from your mail hon, remember whatever people say, ive always been told im cinical and weird, it's a good thing cos you don't fit the fucking rest of the boring society, take it as a compliment. love you tons and speak soon, don't know if i'll be on tomorrow but i'll try. *hug* your best today is good enough, *hug*
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Wedding tomorrow, I don't know what's going on in my head hon, will have to try think but I just don't want to be here now, anyway love you too and don't be so hard on yourself k, well done for going out etc, you deserve it, keep at it, and the other things will fall into place, sorry short one I wanted to say something bout the rest but my internet time is running out, mail Monday again. Love you and take care of yourself *hug*
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HI honi, I hope you are ok, Ive been thinking of you and hon please see it for what it is, facts only try not get too emotional about it because you do need to go to class and exams no matter how much youve missed, not going will only throw you in a bigger downward spiral and you don't need that and you don't deserve that. Love you to bits and if you can let me know what happened k. *hug* take care of yourself ok, you are worth so much *hug*
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Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Hi I'm Em, this is a bit about me: I was abused throughout my childhood. No support from my family. Diagnosed with depression in '05. In psych hosp for awhile cos I was suicidal, treated terribly there. I have PTSD and anxiety, finding it hard to survive, death seems the only way out and I dont' have the support I need to get through the struggle to stay safe.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Don't feel its worked at all so far. Its so draining, bringing up stuff that happened in the past and I'm exhausted as it is.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It sort of helps, but not every time. Often writing stuff down is good, just so its out of my head.
Close Sexual Abuse
xxEmxx hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
PTSD as a result of abuse during childhood, abuse whilst a psych in patient and sexual assault. I suffer from flashbacks, panic attacks and nightmares and struggle to trust anyone, making it hard to get help, which is hard to afford anyway.
Treatments
- Inderal Considering
- Think it helps with the tachycardia etc.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Don't think it helps at all. Plus its so expensive. But the thought of changing and starting over, just too hard, it'd be easier on my own. Possibly starting with a new pdoc but i dunno. Its so hard to trust someone.
Open Panic Attacks
i suffer from ptsd, anxiety and have struggled with depresion in the past. trying to come to terms with abuse and struggling to survive this so called life.
Treatments
- BuSpar Not Working
- I took this for awhile even though it didn't seem to have helped. I guess I was scared maybe if it helped a bit i'd be worse if i stopped it. Turns out since stopping it I don't feel any different.
- Effexor Not Working
- i no longer take this. had side effects of feeling sick, couldn't control my temp, got sweaty all the time whereas normally i wouldn't. also had dry mouth.
- Meditation Considering
- I try breathing techniques and meditation. but they're no good when i'm having a panic attack. it doesn't provide relief.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It takes a lot out of me, but it hasn't helped. cant' afford to keep going. too much strain emotionally and financially.
- Seroquel Not Working
- I no longer take this. the doc thought this was responsible for my dizziness and tachycardia.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionxxEmxx hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Time Management
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