Journal Entry for May 14, 2008
i've realized something very important today.
people don't change.
my best friend katt now hates me. i don't blame her. she loves a boy …
My name's Victoria. I'm sixteen. I love Sunny and with any luck will marry him. I'm double jointed. I can solve a Rubik's Cube. My eyes are two different colors. I've been on two different antidepressant medicines. Neither worked. I hate therapy because I don't open up to people in person. I talk to people online. It's easier. I like to talk and I'm a good listener. I don't know how to deal with my problems so I deal with other people's problems. Which are usually worse than mine. Depression runs in my family. I can't cry. I'm basically numb to any emotion.
My name's Victoria. I'm sixteen. I love Sunny and with any luck will marry him. I'm double jointed. I can solve a Rubik's Cube. My eyes are two different colors. I've been on two different antidepressant medicines. Neither worked. I hate therapy because I don't open up to people in person. I talk to people online. It's easier. I like to talk and I'm a good listener. I don't know how to deal with my problems so I deal with other people's problems. Which are usually worse than mine. Depression runs
Dancing. Photography. Poetry. Internet. Technology. Graphics.
Dancing. Photography. Poetry. Internet. Technology. Graphics.
i've realized something very important today.
people don't change.
my best friend katt now hates me. i don't blame her. she loves a boy …
i feel the need to make a list of my top 5 priorities.
so i'm going to do so.
number one: Sunny. i'd honestly not make it with the …
my friend ruth and i have made a deal that neither of us are going to miss any more school. because she's in the same boat that i'm in with …
i've not skipped school in forever. we can only miss 20 unexcused days. and i have 18 days. we got our progress reports today. i hate school so …
this is my favorite i've ever done i think.
i found it the other day.
Fuck this life
And everything in it
People spend way too …
I'm never happy. Nothing makes me happy no matter how much i try to enjoy things. Every thing's a struggle.
polycystic kidneys run in my family. my grandpa died in the hospital while waiting for a transplant from a blood clot in his heart. he was in dialysis. my mom and her brothers all have it. recently finding out that i have it. i get pains and uncomfortable when i move certain ways. like my organs don't all fit in my body.