I just want to throw it all away....
March 31, 2009 8:18pm
Right now I am feeling so numb so I don't even know how this is going to come out. It has been months since my last journal. I thought after I …
anglvsgod
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About Me
anglvsgod
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About Me
I'm a very introspective, emotional, and compasionate woman who struggles with the complexity of life. I am just now at age 30 beginning to address the issues of grief that I have surrounding my mother's schizphrenia and her not being there for me. I also was sexually abused and struggle with healing and trusting men. I am trying to find my meaning in the world and hope that one day I will know my purpose. Currently I am finishing up my master's degree.
I'm a very introspective, emotional, and compasionate woman who struggles with the complexity of life. I am just now at age 30 beginning to address the issues of grief that I have surrounding my mother's schizphrenia and her not being there for me. I also was sexually abused and struggle with healing and trusting men. I am trying to find my meaning in the world and hope that one day I will know my purpose. Currently I am finishing up my master's degree.
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Interests
art, roadtrips, coffee shops, reading for fun, movies, my dog whose name is Sparkini, buffalo wings, candles, meditation, journal writing, yoga, classical music, and laughing. I do not enjoy power, sarcasm, manipulation, controlling people, the outdoors, amusement parks, people who try to cross boundaries, italian food, snobs, and cleaning. just in case you wanted to know.
art, roadtrips, coffee shops, reading for fun, movies, my dog whose name is Sparkini, buffalo wings,
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August 20, 2008 4:25pm
Hi Everyone....
Lots of people have been asking how I am doing. I guess the short answer is I'm better. I'm still wanting to sleep all …
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feeling fragile ...need support
August 11, 2008 6:57pm
It's been awhile since I've posted and I'm feeling a little fragile tonight and like I need some support.
Typically I am ok with …
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Hi! What did you receive your Master's in? I'm majoring in Childhood Ed.
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Support Groups
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I was abused from the ages of 9-12 by my maternal grandfather. I lived in a very chaotic home where my mother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when I was 9. Consequently all our family members thought she was weird and did not offer any support. I feel I grew up alone and struggle now with relationships because I feel I did not get the support I needed as a child. I feel that growing up I did not learn basic social skills or basic tasks.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- I was on it for about two weeks. The first week was ok, but the second week I felt like I was buzzing or had too much to drink. I couldn't push through the side effects.
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- The best thing for me is when I find someone who is validating and can tell me this stuff really happened to you.
Close Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with Borderline when I was 25. I did DBT for a year and that seemed to help some. I still am struggling a lot with it though since I just had major life change- I've moved and started grad school.
Treatments
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- good - seemed to help.
Open Food Addiction
I'm really struggling with food addiction. I have tried Weight Watchers and diets, but when my life gets stressful again I will always go to food to try to self-medicate.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused by my maternal grandfather from age 9-12. I am very much still dealing with the effects in my life.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Schizophrenia
My mom was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 9 years old. I'm unable to really talk to her or my family about it. I'm just trying to get some understanding about the disease.
Open College Stress
I am a second year grad student and will be finished in May 08. I have had a difficult time adjusting to grad school and the pressures involved with that.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I don't know what I would do without my therapist. seriously.
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
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