Journal

    I'm renting a house in Hawaii and will be shipping out soon but I don't know untill my Medical board comes back and I can get orders to go home. Yesterday my property manager caled me telling me the owners want me to move out by the 1st of july.

    I'm hopping to to to school in August, but I have to recieve my orders before I can take terminal leave to start. At the earliest I can go home is 15 july. I can hardly get myself around let alone move all my stuff with me. When I get my orders the military will have people move it for me, I was hopeing I could stay where I am now till then. I even pay 1995 a month for rent in a 3brm house to myself because all my roomates already left and they were the guys who always helped me move and carry things I cannot.

    I cannot afford to higher some one to move me and a deposit with first months rent into a new place. I'm sepening elmost every penny I have on my car loan and credit cards because I know if possible it will take a long time for me to find a job that I can do an will higher me. : ( plus I have a Cat, most places don't allow cats. I don't know what I would do with out him. when I hurt really bad, if I start to cry or just feel really sad he come instinctively running to come singing to me. I hope I get orders to go home before 1st july.

Im in the military so I cannot take time off when my pain/difficulties flair up.

I've done all I can an I am currently wating for my medical board results to come back. Even with a written profile of my limitations I am still forced to break it. I can only do so much durring the day until its to much to handle. I'm going to physical therapy for the second time. I know I could do better then I've been if my supervisor would not have me standing duty that has me go against my written profile. I've tryed to go through the chain but its redundent. I just hope my medical board comes back soon and they let me out now so I can after 5yrs finally have a chance to improve.