Blessings Coming ???
November 14, 2008 4:07am
David's house is rennovated, inside and out. It is beautiful ! But, I have mixed feelings about it. I am proud of …
dcspatti 
3:40am, November 11, 2009
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dcspatti
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About Me
I lost my David, my fiancee and my soulmate, on April 14, 2008. I struggle everyday to go on without him. He was my best friend, my teacher, my counselor, my preacher, my rock, my every breath and my every heartbeat. We had only 2 years, but in that short time, "we loved a lifetime's worth" as Sarah Connor said. I just wanted more. David ended most of his songs with "Take me home" to wrap things up. His headstone bears that message. God took him home to be forever in glory, to live with no pain and no tears. He has his prize. I celebrate that, but miss him to help me through the lonely days on this earth, until we can share eternity together. I am here at DS, asking for prayer, asking for compassion, asking for advice, asking for friendship and to give the same to anyone who needs that from me. Only with love can we endure our losses. Love and faith abide. God bless.
I lost my David, my fiancee and my soulmate, on April 14, 2008. I struggle everyday to go on without him. He was my best friend, my teacher, my counselor, my preacher, my rock, my every breath and my every heartbeat. We had only 2 years, but in that short time, "we loved a lifetime's worth" as Sarah Connor said. I just wanted more. David ended most of his songs with "Take me home" to wrap things up. His headstone bears that message. God took him home to be forever in glory, to live with no pain and
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My Prayer
November 1, 2008 1:03am
O kind and merciful God, in Your Hands I place my hopes and fears, my likes and dislikes, my happiness and unhappiness, my joys and sorrows. I offer …
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Status of My Goals
October 23, 2008 4:00am
I have begun Atkins and have lost 2 pounds so far. Feeling great and excited about losing 43 more pounds. Still no job. Could use prayer, …
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I am very sorry that you are having such a hard time.
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Finally hit bottom. No money left, no friends except those through gambling. No interests/hobbies outside of gambling. Lost my soulmate 19 months ago to lung cancer. Found friends and distraction from my grief through gambling. No job. Family is all dead. Very alone. Went to GA and left in tears, wanting to die. It just made me feel like a filthy loser. Tried another location, same reaction. Just depression and feeling I don't deserve to live. So, now what ? I am not going back to GA, so if that is your only suggestion, please just don't write me. If you only plan is to see a therapist, that one is already happening. Due to limitation of my health care plan, I can only go once a month. Meantime, I have never felt so alone or so hopeless. I have prayed at least 5 times a day, asking God to help me, but still no answers. I am just alone, sad, and out of options.
.......I'm gonna put this in the discussions at the Gambling Addiction and Recovery group.......see if anyone there might have any suggestions for you.
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I wrote this poem three days after my wife's passing. I hope it helps you. God bless.
To the Rare and Radiant Maiden.
We can do nothing to persuade the sun
To reverse his course in this wintry sky.
We can't make downward the direction of up
We can't make what’s Gospel a meaningless lie.
We can't change the course of a fierce, mighty wind.
Atone a mean man who has stumbled and sinned.
We can't make a frown, the Cheshire Cat’s grin.
No. All we can do is to heave a grand sigh.
We can see the side of the coin that was tossed.
We can take grasp of the line we have crossed.
We can surely mourn for the love we have lost
And give to my lover a solemn good-bye.
And let her sweet echo still our sad cry.
We can let her sweet echo heal our sad cry.
I’m With You
Just wanted to say the waves of grief often return and not because we did or do something wrong. They come because they are feelings we have brought on by life and it's unfairness. You have a right to be sad even after months, you miss him, you love him still, and your life is not as you wanted. It's perfectly fine to feel that sadness, we all do and we all handle it the right way for us. Sharon
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I've missed your posts Patti - I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad again.
Love and hugs, Angela
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
: Loss of a Partner/SpouseI lost my fiancee on April 14, 2008. He had lung cancer, brain cancer and Hep C. I struggle everyday to go on without him. He was my best friend and soulmate.
Close Widows & Widowers
I was never married to David by the state, but we were married in God's eyes and fully committed to each other. I need to grieve as a widow but society says I am not. I join this group to be around those who might accept me and understand my pain.
Treatments
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
- Helps a lot. I helps to tell my story among those who understand.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Helps a little, but only a little.
