blairwitch's Journal

One hour as gone havent had a cig, going to get busy today drink a lot of water , clean my house , i know i will be on here alot , cravings is around 7/10 at mo its in the backn of my mind these next few days will be hard but worth it in the end, so pissed off that i started smoking again , just because of that 1 cig , i know now i can not do that again.

Its 10.40 , 2 hours and 40 mins cravings are getting worse , trying to work through it which does help changing my routine, this is a nightmare , my house will be spotless by the end of the day lol, just cleaned the fridge, what im trying to do is an hour in each room, but half way through cleaning the kitchen the craving got really strong that why i thought i would come on here , untill the craving has weakened , couple of deep breaths ready now to finish the kitchen, i have noticed i am getting dizzy sometimes, is that due to the nicotine , dont know

its 18.34 , have not smoked yet its been really hard, had a sleep this afternoon , hubby came home he smokes , he smoked infront of me which i asked him to do , due to last time i gave up , he used to smoke outside but when winter came he started to smoke in the house, and its one reason i started smoking again, so lets get it over and done with and get used to him smoking infront of me, i neally grabbed it out of his hand, but half way through he did go outside, which it did make me feel better , i dont know what really to do when it comes to him smoking