Journal

It is about time... should of wrote this sooner. But I won against Manulife and got my benefits and all money oweing! Now to fight for other things.... first something fair with my little guy then WCB appeal for this injury ... then ... when does it end? Truly ... is it a fight I must do every single day? Should hire myself out as a professional by the time my life time is fulfilled. Stay strong is harder than ....    

I was denied my benefits when my doctor finally pulled me out of work in April. Was dropping weight like crazy and ill. Fought for the benefits - was denied my first appeal. Wasn't with it anyway! Fought for them again and finally won my second appeal! Finally something is starting to work. The worse part of my life right now is driving. Very painful with a fracture in the upper back between the shoulder blades. And that is from a work related injury! I am going to fight for those benefits ... and get them to pay for all these treatments for the past 6 years! 6 years this month since that Fall that changed my life. Things happen for a reason - sometimes it is just very hard to see "what the reason is". Day by day is how I try to manage. The pain frustrates me ... especially when I am trying to have a day filled with activities with my youngest. It hurts me inside when I can't do what I use to. The hardest thing to do is accept that life will be different for me from now on. How long will I be able to work? Not sure but I am doing my damndest to keep on.  That is all that we can do - be true to ourselves and accept the things we CAN NOT change! Acceptance is REALLY hard for me!