Journal Entry for November 18, 2009
November 18, 2009 8:50pm
although going out for meals n socialising a couple of times, i am still in control of drink and not the other way round :) xx
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sassy84
8:44pm Wednesday
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About Me
sassy84
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About Me
hi im a 25 year old womanen on here in over a year, i have just had my 6th detox and feel stronger than ever this time. ive met a brilliant man who understands everything and is such a support, i suffer from major depression and i am now seeing a psychiatrist now im off alcohol to diagose what else is affecting my episodes which arde like black outs toio myself, im alcoholic and i also self harm, although this year ive been a lot more controlled with this after getting a strong support network around me.
hi im a 25 year old womanen on here in over a year, i have just had my 6th detox and feel stronger than ever this time. ive met a brilliant man who understands everything and is such a support, i suffer from major depression and i am now seeing a psychiatrist now im off alcohol to diagose what else is affecting my episodes which arde like black outs toio myself, im alcoholic and i also self harm, although this year ive been a lot more controlled with this after getting a strong support network around
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Interests
gardening, art and crafts, walks, music, cooking, when im well enough going to the gym and love watching horror movies, read a lot of books too.
gardening, art and crafts, walks, music, cooking, when im well enough going to the gym and love watching
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3 hugs received, 2 hugs given, 1 discussion post
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sassy84 and crankyoldman are now friends 9:12pm
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hey dan!!! well i been away a long time, on my road to recovery it was a very turbulent year and achieved…
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sassy84 wrote a discussion post in the Alcoholism support group: hi all new and old, hope im doing the ... 8:59pm
....right thing. for those that know me, i have had 5 community detoxs and two general hopsoilzation…
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sassy84 wrote a journal entry updating 3 goals 8:50pm
although going out for meals n socialising a couple of times, i am still in control of drink and not…
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sassy84 updated their status 8:44pm
only got swine flu ant a :(…
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Journal Entry for November 3, 2009
November 3, 2009 1:03pm
35 days sober 2morrow, extremely fed up, still no anti depressants since friday, cravings getting worse, feel rubbish n easily stressed.
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oh dear........
October 25, 2009 7:29am
well, ive been feeling pretty low last couple of days, im starting to not trust my partner and im realising things that he has said when i was …
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oh dear........
October 25, 2009 7:29am
well, ive been feeling pretty low last couple of days, im starting to not trust my partner and im realising things that he has said when i was …
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sober
October 21, 2009 4:43pm
nearly three weeks plus one now, and feel very proud not had that many cravings either to be honest alls good for once! x
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Sassy I feel for you hun. I know you don't want to live this way. I was in that place just a few short months ago and I can't say it wasn't hard to stop and really work towards sobriety but so worth it. You need to go to any lengths for your sobriety. I wish you nothing but love and laughter.
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I'm doing well, just got past the elusive two-year sobriety time. I'm back into my career and fairly healthy for an old fart. I am surely more healthy without the alcohol and jail and puking and all the fun stuff that came in that bottle. And..... I'm in love as well. That's always nice...... feels good to feel good. Know what I mean?
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Hi Sara..... it is Sara right? Where ya been for so long? Glad to see ya back. ~Dan Dipsodan
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good going, stay focused, hugs
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thank you for the encouragement and support. I guess there is hope right? later, hugs
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- crap its not same
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- not same
- Talking Working / Worked
- i havent cut since may time, i more or less have my alcohol under control, and talk a lot to my nurse, doc, social worker
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- helps i have nine, tend to cover up others, more time equals mnore pain.........update now on number ten
Close Alcoholism
Treatments
- AA Meetings Not Working
- not my cup of tea im afraid
- Antabuse Working / Worked
- does work but i tried to come off it and drank yes the side effets r horrendous
- Campral Working / Worked
- either my will power or these babies but my cravings have subsided a lot wen i take them
- Detox Working / Worked
- had a couple of lapses but been more or less sober 7 weeks now
- Folic Acid Working / Worked
- not sure i take lots of these but not sure wot they supposed to be doin
- Librium Working / Worked
- i started on the 40mg-30mg and after 3rd day started cuttin down didnt make me feel half as bad as i thought it would my 2nd n third day was the worst
- Outpatient Treatment Program Too Soon to Tell
- my first appointment with louise on monday, she seems nice which is a good thing :) they r all very helpful
- Sleep Somewhat Helpful
- some days all i wanna do is sleep today its quarter to five in morn n am still up
- Willpower Working / Worked
- im very proud of myself as the two days before i was in two minds wheter to do it and didnt have faith but i kept strong, know it doesnt sound long 9 days but after five years solid its great 4 me
Open Panic Attacks
Treatments
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionive had depression for 5 years not a lot helps, dont know why i get depressed just gnerally everyhthing gets me down n keeps me down
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- still on 30 mg they help with panic attacks but thats about it
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Elavil Not Working
- no good 4 me
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- working
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
Open Healthy Sex
i have been told i have body dysmorphic disorder, i hate everything about myself, i do not believe people if they compliment me and think they are making fun of me i think this is part of my paranoid episodes i have, i feel overweight and plain, i have no confidence or self esteem. i am unable to orgasm with any sexual partner i have i get easily embarrrassed by this i feel useless.
Treatments
- Patience Not Working
