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keepOnSwimming 
1:26pm, May 29, 2009
i've gone through so much thought, pain, and anguish over the ins/whys/hows of depression. Now, I'm at the point of knowing YET still going through the "D" symptoms. I just can't write about it anymore. it's always the same thing. Then I read jacqsw's journal entry, which was exactly what I'm feeling: i am told by others that i'm lucky and blessed, but i still feel bad, sad, and paralyzed in bed. it's not a lack of wanting nor discipline. don't people realize that if i could snap out of it, I'd do it!!!!!!!!!!!!
what helps? going on this website.
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Amen. So many of my friends sadly suffer, too, from depression, and describe your symptoms...lately, I begin to wonder if I have depression, as well, but am just too "slow"/in denial, to recognize it...
What I do know is this....folks need to realize that depression problems are both chemical, as well as emotional...you can't have 1 w/o the other & you can't treat 1 w/o treating the other...it's like the nature of light: light is made up of both particles and waves...kinda like a lot of other things in (human) nature...
You probably are blessed...so am I. Yet, knowing these things does not make our problems disappear...it's that maintenance factor that keeps cropping up: how are we going to deal w/our problems, today? That's where you get tired, isn't it? That's what makes my friends tired when they have these issues, I know.
My guess is that you've gone through therapy and counseling and probably gotten 2nd opinions, too...still, from where I'm sitting, I see a valuable, intelligent person who is wrangling w/a hefty
Gordian knot. And, I'm wishing, again, that I had a magic wand for every time I saw any problem, like this...well, then, we'd all be attending Hogwart's, I guess & exchanging spells on this site, instead...
So, I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and hope that you keep us posted. 'Cause, we do care.
rushfan74
You are blessed. The Lord provides you with the unconditional love through Him and through your animals
trying2find1
eh, I am told that all the time too.. and it pisses me off. I mean, I dont know if they are saying all of that to make us feel better, or they THINK its going to make us feel better.. but I know for me, it just makes me feel worse. cause I dont see what theyre saying.. I dont feel blessed.. I dont feel like im going to go places.. and exactly.. if we could snap out of it, we would. I know how to think, and what to do, but its not that simple..
im here if you need to talk.
AshleyJ